Her

Thinking

I sat there, on the dam couch. of the dam tour bus while Molly was alive, talking, and she was here this other fan and now what!!! 

Fuck fuck fuck. I was thinking of everything we have ever done together and I finally can get that back. I can finally tell her how much I love her. She is my everything. My minds racing but also racing with what if she thought I left her. I was frozen, didnt know what to say to her. Breathing  was all I heard on the other line and breathing heavy from my mouth. I felt like this could take two seconds to say but I knew it was taking longer. I heard Luke and Calum but I couldnt reply. 

" Molly, omg fuck Molly your okay" 

" who is this?"

" The fan. Remember I meant you and Ashton at the pancake house, the day I wanted your signature" 

" Oh that day.." 

" YEAH I REMEMBER THAT DAY TOO, you didnt want mine " 

Calum sounded like he was sad she never wanted his but mine and Molly's. I was just glad Molly was alright. Molly didn't deserve any of this bull shit she went through. 

" I am so sorry Calum. I love you guys so much and your tour bus is amazing" 

" Tour bus?"

" yeah Michael and Ahton let me in. Ashton was... "

" Ashton was what" 

I looked at the her. Shaking my head, looking down knowing if she knew I was cutting myself again she would be devastated. I mouthed ' Please dont tell her'. She shook her head. But even if she didnt tell Molly the scars would prove it. 

" Ashton what.... is Ashton there?"

She passed me the phone. Michaels face was lit up with joy. Her face was a lit with joy. I took the phone. I couldnt even think of what to say, it was like the first time meeting her again, I was nervous. 

" Ashton, is that you breathing?"

I looMoked down at my arms. They looked like shit, like hers. Her fresh killer was out there and no one knew where. 

" Hi  Molly" 

My voice was cracking.

" What about you? She said something about you Ash. Baby please?"

A tear rolled down my face. She would just fall apart if she knew I self harmed because I couldnt cope.The pain of her being in the hspital because of some chick bully her.. I couldnt take away that pain, even with cutting it just made it worst and how did she get the cuts on her arm if it was the fa- 

it wasnt the fan. And then there was a knock on the door. Michael walked closer and closer. I looked at him. No. 

" Im sorry Molly I have to go. I love you baby" 

" ASH I HAVE TO TELL YOU SOMETHING WE CANT FIND JAM-"

Mollys p.o.v 

the phone dropped. I tried getting up. All I heard was screaming. It was Ashton. Luke ran. Calum stayed and held me in his arms. All my ivs and shit I unhooked. Everything was beeping. My heart was racing. 

" No Molly you cant"

" CALUM ASHTON"

He looked at me and hugged me even tighter. Breathing heavy, a tear ran down my back. I looked up at the nurse standing in shock that I was awake and crying. The nurse didnt understand and the phone, I heard her voice, Jamie's fucking voice. And then gun shots... 

I screamed. I cried. I couldnt move. Let go of me Calum let fucking go. The nurse ran back to her desk and I watched people run to the doors where the tour bus Calum explained sat all the time except for interviews. LET ME GO. I wasripping at his arms but he was too strong. I gave up...

.. Ashton. please be okay.. please Baby. I cant lose you.