Runaway

Chapter 10 Alone

I had still been sitting, holding Vivi's dead body in my lap. It had only been 10 minuets ago I watched my best friend die before my eyes. I didn't even get to say good-bye. And she was too young to die...only 18, about to be 19. She had wanted to have a cherry farm. Be successful. But because of my mistakes. Shes dead. And it's all my fault.

 I cried, tears streaming down my face. Not stopping, they couldn't stop. How could they? How could the tears stop after what I witnessed. Soon enough I stood up, holding Vivi's dead body in my arms. Blood was still dripping from her onto the cold hard ground. Her blood like a scarlet red. 

  Maybe if I actually tried. This wouldn't have ever happened. She wouldn't be dead. Instead I sat there and watched her die as if I couldn't move. 

 I walked out of the bus into the dark night. You could see the stars and the city in the distance. Maybe there's a chance Vivi is still alive. I can just rush her to the hospital...right? So I began walking, covered in the blood of my friend. After 30 minuets I made it there to the city. And found the hospital a few minuets later. They rushed her to a room. And there I waited for them to tell me. If it was too late. Or if there was hope. 

 I sat in the middle of the night looking up at the ceiling. Wondering if there was a chance she could still be alive. I ended up falling asleep to wake up at 3:00 a.m. by a nurse shaking me. I rubbed my eyes and stood up. The nurse started walking and I followed. We made several turns down the hallways. The floor was tile and looked like marble.

  We eventually made it to our destination and she opened the door. I walked in to see Vivi, lying there awake. The nurse hadn't come in. It was just me and Vivi. She was on her bed looking out the window. 

I approached the bed saying in a quieted voice, "H-hello....?"

Her head turned toward me, she was crying. "Nova..."

"I...I'm sorry." I approached her in tears. "I'm sorry I screwed up. This is all my fault."

 Vivi shook her head, "No no no....Nova...it's not. If I hadn't done what I done we would both be dead."

 I looked at her, no she didn't deserve this. She didn't deserve me. "Vivi...I'm...I'm sorry...."

I put my hand to Vivi's fore-head. "Good....good bye."

 Vivi looked at me confused, "Wh-what are you doing Nova..."

 She was shaking and then she passed out. "Goodbye...friend."

 I had walked away out of the room. Out of the hospital. I had erased her memory of what had happened. Of me. And replaced them with new memories. Ones that are better. Ones where she had a life that I am not in.

 I rented a hotel room and plopped down onto the bed. I dug my nails into the blankets holding them as I cried into them. I'm alone now. Mike and Doll are all the way across the country. Adam and Xavier probably don't care anymore. Vivi doesn't know who I am. And most of all. Sarah and everyone else. They are gone. I don't know where they are. 

 I am alone now. 

But it's not like anyone will care.

No one ever does.

No one ever will.

 Why would someone care for the likes of me. I'm just an idiotic demon who doesn't deserve any friends or happiness in this world.  All I deserve is hate. And yet the people I care about keep on getting hurt because of my foolishness. They don't deserve that.

 No the ones I care about. They are perfect in everywhere shape and form. Well most of them. Still though, where will I go now. What will I do. Will I forever be isolation from the rest of the world. No friends. No family. No nothing.

 I eventually cried so much I fell asleep. And I was engulfed in darkness. Then the terrain of darkness turned into fire. I was in the fire. I could feel the burning of it touch my skin. I screamed, it had hurt so much. I woke up of course. The pain had been so much it woke me up. 

 When I woke up I found myself in a sweat with the blankets kicked off of the bed. 

 I must have had a nightmare. I sighed as I went to the bathroom and took a shower the brushed my teeth and hair. I let my hair flow down my shoulders as I blow dried it. 

 Then I proceeded to put on my leather jacket and look in the mirror. There were bags under my eyes. Maybe I would go visit Vivi? I mean it's not like she would remember me. So what's the harm.

 It took me about half and hour to get to the hospital and get to her hospital room. I walked over to her bed and sat down in the chair next to it. Vivi looked at me, confused as to who I am. It's probably best she didn't know who I was. Seeing as how I am a horrible person. 

  "Hello. I am a friend. You probably don't remember me." I said in a calm voice.

 She nodded saying slowly, "I....I don't remember you..."

 We talked for a bit then I left. I was outside the hospital and I breathed in the cold crisp air. 

No matter what happens there will always be one thing thats true anymore.

I am forever to be in a world of loneliness.