"I see how your attention builds It's like looking in a mirror. Your touch like a happy pill, but still all we do is fear. What could possibly happen next? Can we focus on the love?"
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"Where were you?"
I jumped at the voice.
"Shit, you scared me" I clenched my chest, realizing it was just Serenity "I went for a walk"
"Then why did I hear a car pull off?" She questioned, folding her arms.
"I went for a walk, and I got caught in the rain. Someone was kind enough to offer me a ride home, and I accepted it"
"Who was it?"
"A girl from school" I lied
I didn't want to lie to her over something so small but, I wasn't in the mood to hear her lecture or interrogate me any further.
"It looked like Xabriel's car to me"
"Fine! Xabriel was the one who gave me a ride! Happy?" I shouted, storming off to our room.
"Why didn't you say that the first time?"
"Because you were going to jump to conclusions and think I slept with him or something."
"Did you?"
"Of course not"
"Just be careful"
"I don't need to be careful. Xabriel and I are never going to happen." I replied, falling face first into my bed.
"Good"
She left the room without saying another word, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
I wanted to scream and let all of my emotions and anger out. The conflict between what I knew and what I felt would be the death of me. I know Xabriel's is nothing more than an a sweet talking player, but I felt like he was so much more, I felt there was a slim chance that we could actually be together. I wanted to give the thought a chance but I was so afraid. I can't trust him and I don't want him to hurt me.
I know falling for him is wrong, but it feels so right. I've never felt so comfortable and natural around a person. I enjoyed his company and I loved his presence. What am I supposed to do? I need to protect my heart but it's nearly impossible. It's only a matter of time before he sweeps me off of my feet and steals my heart.
Being around Xabriel was like fire. It gave me a sense of warmth and comfort, but I know if I get too close I'll get burnt.
I let out a heavy sigh as I went to the bathroom for my night shower.
"Alexa play Feels by Kehlani"
"Feels by Kehlani from Apple Music" the speaker replied
"I ask myself, "Is this shit real?" I contemplate 'bout how I feel But you make it way too hard to think That this could be what true love is I don't want wait another minute for ya Oh, you got me falling from the ceiling for ya Knew right from the start there was no limit to ya And I'm catching feelings, baby You give me feels and I Know that I know, that I know that it's real You give me, you give me feels You give me feels and I Know that I know, that I know that it's real You give me, you give me feels"
