Find Your Way Back (Book 1)

Chapter 32 • Tryna Smoke

"Life's no fairytale, I know all too well (well)
Gotta plant the seed sometimes
Then you let it grow
Inhale, exhale some more
Heaven in Hell
If you know, you know
That shit is beautiful
You gotta just let it go
Spark up a blunt and smoke
You better blow that shit out, man
Yeah, yeah
If I could fly (if I could fly, yeah)
I would probably never come down (yeah)
With all of the bullshit confusion on the ground
I wish that I was high
'Cause I can't live my life when it's loud (you know I can't live that way)
So I'm gonna call the bros
Tell 'em, "Roll up one, right now"
I'm tryna smoke"

I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing.

I'm surprised it's still working.

I sighed before getting out of my bed to retrieve my phone.

I rolled my eyes when I saw Xabriel calling.

Should I answer?

I took a deep breath before pressing the "answer" button.

"Trinity?" his voice cracked

I didn't say anything because I didn't know what to say.

I missed him so much, and I was so conflicted. There was a war going on between my heart and head. I loved him so much, but I loved myself more. I really wanted to believe him but I just couldn't. Xabriel and Brittany have chemistry, and I was stupid to believe that I could compete with that.

"Xabriel, I'm sorry, but I can't do this," I said before hanging up the phone.

He called back, but this time I just watched the phone ring.

I looked in the mirror as a few tears began to fall.

I was in so much pain, both physical and emotional.

My neck was beginning to bruise from being choked. I had a pounding headache from all of the crying I did last night, and my cheek was still sore from being slapped around.

I took a quick shower before doing my make-up to cover the bruises.

I wore a short-sleeve black turtleneck to cover up the bruise on my neck, and paired it with jean shorts.