Intimacy

[4.] Illusory Light

<Manhattan,New York,November 22nd; 05:04:44 P.M>

Nicholas House

"You blew in like a breeze.  . And rolled out like a storm. I know you didn't think it'd do any harm" -- Sarah Blaskow

"Have a seat please." He told me.

I sat on the comfy couch of his. . Looking at his elegant place.

"I gotta say. . Your place has always looked better than mines." I laughed a little.

"Not always. . Your last place was better looking than mines." He said.

The room grew quiet for a while. I cleared my throat... As it was an awkward moment.

"Sooo.." I said, becoming serious again.

"Right," he said, about to continue his thoughts,"I'm sorry first off... I never knew I hurt you that bad-"

"Psh! Please! " I rolled my eyes,"More like wasted my time."

"I never wasted your time Simone." He denied it.

"Then what the f**k did you do ?! Huh!?" I was done with the conversation already.

"I didn't waste your time." He kept saying.

"You know what... I think I should be going already because apparently this conversation  isn't going  anywhere. . So I'll just go." I said, putting on my jacket, about to leave out.

"Wait.." Nicholas called, grabbing my hand,"please, sit back down."

I sat back down... Wishing he would just admit his wrong.

"Ard.. I'm sorry. Yes, I wasted your time... But I never meant to hurt you Simone. I still cared... But Angie really needed me." He told me.

"So I didn't huh?!  After having a child together.. Being with each other long enough... Dealing with each other ever since high school and I didn't need you?!? That sh*t is heartbreaking!  Do you know what I had to go through to get over you Nick? Do you ?! " I asked him.

"Simone , I'm sorry!" He said.

"I'm getting sick and tired of hearing 'I'm sorry'! God damn ! When aren't you !? The shit you do isn't nothing but a sorry!" I was done with his apologies.

"Just calm down Sim—" he tried calming me down but I cut him off.

"I'm done with you ! You hurt me ! We have a child together and all you did was leave me ! That sh*t not cool ! It's not the f**k cool!" I paused and began to cry, "my heart is broken because of you! I thought you would never hurt me and  you did ! I can't believe you..."

He began to walk towards me, trying to comfort me . I kept pushing him away and he wasn't trying to let me free.

"Simone , I know you're upset.. But I have always loved you and I still do Simone .. I love you and the kids... I never meant to hurt you... I know, I was dumb, I know I've done things that made you mad at me... I have did a lot of things to you to you that I regret and all I can say is sorry... I just want to make it better, work out our problems .. Be there for each other again ... Build a better bond . Please Simone." He said, rubbing my hands.

I couldn't stop staring at him because of how much hurt he put me through... I just don't know if I can even give him another chance ... I mean should I ?

"Um.. It's almost passed my curfew... It'll be best if I just go. Umm, good luck and yeah, I wish you the best and if you want to see Kobe, you can always pick him up from my mom's house . . . " I said , walking out without saying bye.

I called a cab and went straight to Lamar's Luxury Apartment.