Intimacy

[3.] Rescue My Heart

<Queens, New York, November 22nd;04:34:32 P.M>

CreedMoor Psychiatric Center

"Lying to myself I can make it on my own. . . Making it alone is lonely. . .Twisting and turning, Oh I'm crashing and I'm burning. . So reach out your hand for me"--Liz Longley

Eyes opened and everything looked bright. I felt numb so I couldn't move a single bone in my body. . The only thing I could move was my mouth. But looking at the brightness, something just didn't feel right. . Everything was all white like I was in heaven. . Could this be true? Did Lamar really kill me? I began to scream for help. . But my body began twitching. I couldn't control my body. . The only thing I could control is my mouth. Why am I twitching like this?

"Someone! Help me ! Where am I ?!?" I yelled to myself.

No one heard my call. . No one came to me. . No cared. . Will I be here forever? What if no one could rescue me from this silent hell? Then what? What will I do?

"Simone McNeal ?" A voice called out, opening the doors of freedom.

"You're free to go." They told me.

I rushed out to see who rescued me from this silent hell and gave me a blessed freedom. . . I then was struggling trying to walk but I made it to at least the lobby.. I took a seat and I noticed Nicholas was right next to me. My joy then died down.

"What are you doing here ? Go home where you belong." I rolled my eyes.

"Well I mean I could, but if it wasn't for me, you would still be in this piece of jail cell." He told me, proving a point .

I stared at him.

"So what? You want a cookie now?" I asked, irritated.

"No, what I want is to talk... One on one, privately... Today... Seems like we're missing a piece of our story and needs to figure out what it's missing." He told me.

"Why do we need to talk? You left me for Angie... There's nothing else to talk about Nick!" I yelled at him, frustrated.

"Simone, please... Can we just speak about this in private... I want to explain myself to you... Please. Just let me explain myself and then I'll leave you alone if you still feel the same." Nicholas begged.

"Fine." I said.

I got up, and we walked to the car... Sitting in the front seat, I thought about the pain that he and Lamar put me through... I felt so disgusted and just wanted to kill them both but I couldn't . Not even if I tried...