Intimacy

[15.] 10 Seconds

<Philadelphia,Pennsylvania, November 30th;12:58:09 P.M>

Holmesburg Prison

"You broke my heart ... With all your lies... You really should look for an exit, cause you running out of time.."--Jazmine Sullivan

I've been thinking and been craving for answers.  You're probably wondering why am I at a prison though. Well , I came to visit Lamar in prison. No worries, Nicholas came to protect me. But, Lamar is the reason why I'm here... And I'm the reason why he's there. I need answers on why he would hurt me and be so harsh towards me. I didn't deserve it. So why would he do it? What made him hurt me and abuse me the way he did?

"Ms. McNeal... You are free to go back there ... Remember , you are being timed which means you have 5 minutes to talk to Mr. Wright." The officer told me.

"Ok." I agreed, as I walked back there and sat at the table where Lamar was.

"What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be home, safe , where you belong?" He looked at me with disgust in his eyes.

"I'm here to get some answers Lamar." I told him, I swallowed spit while I was shaking.

"Listen Simone, you put me in here to be safe and away from me, so why are you here? You need to go home! You shouldn't be here!" Lamar tried to warn me.

"I'm not leaving until I get answers." I told him, refusing to leave.

"Simone, I'm warning you." He said, trying to control himself.

"Simone, I think it's time to go." Nicholas tried to tell me.

"Better listen to your Prince Charming Simone... Because in a minute you about to be Beauty that just seen a beast if you don't get the f**k outta here !" He yelled, slamming on the table.

I then flinched

"Why did you hurt me?" I asked, trying to stay calm.

"Simone, please get out before I have to hurt you again." He began to get heated.

"Tell me and then I'll go." I said, getting ready to put my pocket knife out, slowly.

"I'm giving you 3 seconds to leave... In 3!" He began to count down.

"Tell me Lamar!" I tested him.

"Simone.." Nicholas called my name, to warn me.

"2!" He continued.

"Simone!" Nicholas called my name.

"I'm not going no f**king where until you tell me and give me an answer." I told him, sticking with my word.

"1!" Lamar then jumped across the table to choke me to death.

I then pulled out my pocket knife and began to threaten him with it.

"I swear on my dad's grave!" I struggled to get out.

Nicholas then pulled Lamar off of Simone as well as the body guards.

"You trying to test me?" Lamar said.

"Is it working ?" I asked, getting up.

"Come on Simone." Nicholas grabbed me, taking me to the car.

"Don't come back here either." Lamar told me.

Once I got into the car, I began to break down.

"What's wrong Simone?" Nicholas asked, turning off the car to save gas.

"What did I do to deserve this hurt? I do everything for y'all. I please y'all, I cooked for y'all, I was there when no one else wasn't! What's the whole point of being with me if you just gonna hurt me and play with my emotions! What the f**k?!?" I yelled, punching  the car door.

"Calm down Simone. Listen, I know I hurt you but what Lamar did to you , you didn't deserve that. Never will I ever put my hands on the woman that I love. I wouldn't put my hands on no woman!  And that's facts! Yes, I hurt you but not  like Lamar and never will. You deserve way better and I'm here to make that up to you. I'm here to do better.  Simone.. Look at me ." Nicholas told me.

I then looked at him.

"I love you. I promise, I would never hurt again, I'm here to protect you and the family. Just let me love you .. Please Simone." He begged me.

I kept looking at him. Until he began to get closer to me. Once our lips locked, my whole world spun.