A Story Told, But Never Really Heard

The story with 118 days

(A/N this is the style of poem thats a rant more then a rhythmically thought out piece)

You said you loved me
You said you cared
But after only one week
You ran right back to her

I know i'm not pretty
I know i'm not perfect
But i am a person
And i deserve to be treated like one

I have feelings
And though they may not matter to you
But they matter to me

I never wanted to leave you
In truth
I'm not sure i ever wanted you
We just weren't meant to be

And though it may be
I left suddenly
At least i left peacefully
You could've done the same

You betrayed me
You let me down
You made me feel like shit
And made me hate myself even more then before

Mirrors now haunt me
Reminding me i was never good enough
My mind in no longer silent
The voices whispering my failures

You were just like the rest of them
You didn't really love me
You didn't really care
I don't blame you, because neither do i

But was it really necessary to do this?
To spread such hurtful words out of spite?
Why must you be so childish?
I was already hurting, can you not see that?

So now I'm left
With a web of complicated emotions
With no map
Im left to navigate it alone

Im mad
Im sad
Im confused
Im lonely

But I'm not sorry
I made my decision
I made the right choice for me
And nothing you can say will make me regret it

Just remember this;
You're not the one who's been left out in the cold by half your friends
You're not the one who's been exiled and dragged others down with you
You're not the one who's now going to have to live with that guilt for years to come
You're not the one being laughed at for having feeling for someone else who doesnt feel the same
You're not the one who's left alone to cry yourself to sleep
I am.