If he wanted me to not trust anyone anymore he succeeded. I can't trust anyone. I have stopped talking and started shutting myself away. I haven't spoke to Luke, Calum or Michael. And I fell bad for not doing that. They haven't done anything.
"Come one Gi tell me what's wrong?" Luke said. Luke is the only one who is allowed around the house since I'm grounded still. Even longer now since my mom noticed my hair. Oops I guess.
I looked at Luke and stared at him. He sighed.
"Gi your going to have to talk to your team you have a game tomorrow," Luke said.
"He lied..." I kept repeating over and over again.
"Gi," Luke said getting up and sitting by me and pulling me into a hug.
"He lied Luke. Lied," I said
"I know Gigi but me and the boys are worried about you. He shouldn't of done it," Luke told me.
"Cuddles?" I asked. He nodded and pulled me into my bed and under the covers.
"Netflix?" He asks. I nod at that again. He smiles and turns my Xbox on and loads up Netflix.
"Can we watch American horror story?" I asked quietly, Luke laughed and nodded loading it up.
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I stood in my bathroom staring at my reflection in the mirror I have. I sighed and just stared.
"Why am I ugly?" I asked myself then looking at my hair.
"Why is my hair horrid?" I questioned everything about me. And I mean everything. I felt my eyes water and then water.
I saw my razor on the side of the bath, when a idea popped into my head. I grabbed my razor and broke it and ft the blade out.
"They will hate me," I explained thinking of when my friends will find out about it. I pushed them thoughts to the back of my head and carried on cutting.
I decided to cut on my thighs since I have a football game tomorrow and the kit is a short sleeved top and shorts.
10 cuts later, 5 on each thigh later and the bathroom floor was covered in blood. I sighed and grabbed a towel and wet it. I cleaned the floor and got rid of the dried blood on my thighs.
I just cut. And I didn't feel pain just pleasure. I understand now why people cut.
Why does my life make me do this? It's Ashton's fault. I did so well, my life was amazing before Ashton came into my life. Now he is. My life has gone downhill.
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