I Love You, So Much...I Mean It

The Reason To Die

There is no reason to this quote...or maybe there is a reason because it depends on how you look at it.
- Gunique (me)

Mark's P.O.V

I arrived at the hospital and parked. I got Georgia out of the car and ran into the hospital building. I was getting out of breath but Georgia's life was on the line. A nurse noticed me and I explained what happened. I started to cry and kissed Georgia's forehead before she was whisked away by the doctors to try and save her. I wiped my eyes from the tears and sat down on a chair.

I honestly don't know how long I will be waiting before I get any news about Georgia. I don't want her to die. I have lost my father, Daniel, and I don't want to lose anyone else. Especially Georgia. Without her, there is no more happiness. My memories back to September of 2015 came flowing into my mind.

~flashback~

"I'm so sorry but Daniel Kyre will not survive with the irreversible brain damage" The doctor announced

The tears that flowed from me was like a waterfall. Georgia held me in her arms, trying to comfort me. I didn't think it was real at first but the more I thought of it, the more I realised it was real. My eyes were red and puffy from the crying as I looked at Georgia's crystal blue eyes.

"This...this can't be real. Please tell me it's not real!" I cried to Georgia
"Mark, I am so sorry"

I hugged Georgia for what felt like ages as she just rubbed my back and tried to calm me down. After a month of not posting on Youtube or any social media, Georgia sat me down on the couch.

"Mark, I need you to listen to me. Everyone is starting to worry about you. I hate to see you in this state and you need to move on. I know he was a close friend of yours and he killed himself but I know that he would say what I am going to say to you now.

He may be dead but he is still with us because he is in our hearts. Daniel is a fragment inside of you and you use it to celebrate what he has accomplished. You don't cry about the fact he is dead, you don't make time stand still, the only thing you can do is remember him and move on. Time is never going to wait for you, you just need to catch up."

I was surprised and I hugged Georgia. But she didn't hug back. I wanted reassurance but I didn't get it.

"Georgia, what's wrong?"
"Daniel would want you to keep on living your life"
"But-"
"No, you need to move on. For Daniel's sake"

Through the entire ordeal, I always wondered why Georgia didn't cry. I always wanted to ask but I never did. Like, they became friends and knew each other through the times she collaborated with Cyndago. It just bothers me why she never cried.

~end of flashback~

Someone shook my shoulder and I found it was Danny.

"Mark, are you okay? You weren't responding to us" Danny asked me
"I'm fine, just thinking about stuff"
"What stuff?"
"Just, why would Georgia do this to herself? She knows that I lost Daniel to suicide and that it would break my heart if she dies"
"Why do YOU think she killed herself?"
"I don't know"

Barry handed me a water bottle and I thanked him for the offer. I took a sip before a nurse came towards us with a clipboard in her hand.

"Which one is Mark Fischbach?" The nurse questioned
"That's me, is Georgia okay?" I panicked
"Calm down sir, she didn't lose a lot of blood. We suspect that she only just fell unconscious when you found her. She currently sleeping"
"Hold on, just? But she had a weak pulse!"
"Her pulse was weak because she was in a unconscious state. Her pulse weakens when she is sleeping or calm in an extensive time frame as well. Georgia is going to be fine"
"So the cuts were not deep?"
"Well, few were deep but not lethal. She will have two lines temporarily on her left wrist but the rest were not deep. Would you like to go see her now?"
"Yes please"

The nurse lead us to Georgia's room where the door was closed. The nurse opened the door and it turned out Georgia was awake. But she wasn't happy, in fact she was scared. I walked in and hugged Georgia, happy she survived.

Georgia's P.O.V

Why did I survive? I don't deserve to live! I am a robot, I have no emotions! I couldn't even Mark back. But Mark had been crying real bad, I can tell. The nurse left us alone and I saw Danny and Barry with sad faces and possible tears that were on their faces.

"Georgia, I'm so happy you are alive" Mark sighed with relief
"Why?"
"What?"
"Why are you happy? You hate me! Everybody does!"
"Georgia, no. That's not true"
"It is because I am like a robot because I have no feelings! The first time I cried in ages was when I confessed my love to you. Other times don't count for crying. And the last time I cried then was when my cat died. I haven't cracked a real smile since 2013! I don't have emotions!"
"...Georgia, why didn't you tell me?"
"Because no one needs to worry about a girl like me"
"Georgia..."

My tears formed but I wiped them before they could turn chaos. Barry and Danny sat on the bed and tried to comfort me.

"I wanna go home" I spoke
"What do you mean by home?" Barry wondered
"I wanna go home...with Mark"

Mark looked at me wide eyes and then cracked a smile. He cuddled me and I hugged back. I am not doing this because I miss Mark, I am doing this because I need Mark. After all...

...I didn't say goodbye the way I wanted to.
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