I Love You, So Much...I Mean It

Visitors

When visitors come, so do a whole load of questions. - Gunique (me)

Georgia's P.O.V

I looked at my hands and moved my fingers slightly. You know, I never thought I would actually dare to commit suicide. I had come close to committing suicide but I never actually attempted it. It feels like I murdered someone. I murdered myself but came back to life. I felt a hand hold mine to find it was Mark giving me a smile.

"Are you disappointed with me Mark? And be honest!" I said to him
"I was more scared of losing you then the fact that you actually committed the act. Because I was scared of never hearing from you or seeing your eyes ever again. But you're not to blame"
"Yes I-"
"No you're not. I am. I was the one who sent you over the edge. It was my fault. But I will take that responsibility, because that's what the heart does to you sometimes"

Mark kissed my forehead and left the room. Danny stood by me and then took a seat near me. Barry just sat at the end of the bed.

"Georgia, are you sure about going back to Mark? I don't want him t-"
"Danny, stop worrying! It will be fine"
"Okay, if he causes trouble again, I want you back with us or at least with the grumps. Okay?"
"Okay Danny"

Danny gave me a pat on the shoulder as he stood up to leave. That left Barry and I all alone.

"Georgia, can I ask you something?" Barry wondered
"Sure, what is it?"
"Um, you know when we...well, you know?"
"Yeah, twice. Go on"
"Well, I was wondering if you used me or if it was legit?"
"...I, myself well...I didn't want to turn you down. You were the one asking for it"
"So you just did what was at my command"
"Not command, request"
"Oh, okay"

Barry kissed the back of my hand and left. That led to people running in and giving me hugs. Arin, Ross, Suzy and Holly were the first to give me hugs. Alongside them was Matthias and Amanda as well as Toby and Jaclyn. It was crowded but I didn't care. I had friends by my side.

"Georgia, why would you do this?" Suzy cried in her shaky voice
"I just felt like I was trapped. I couldn't get out. I still can't. You guys probably hate me now, don't you?"

"Of course we don't! Why would we?! We are all just surprised" Matthias explained to me
"But you guys shouldn't be. This the first actual attempt"

"What do you mean by actual attempt?" Jaclyn questioned me
"Well, two times I chickened out at the last moment before actually like attempting. But now I know I am strong enough to kill myself"

"Don't you dare say that!" Ross confronted me "We all love you. We don't want you to die"
"But...how do I know you are speaking the truth?"

"Georgia, cut the crap!" Arin snapped
"What do you mean?"
"We got so worried when Dan and Barry said that you committed suicide! We all got scared that we would lose you! Why would you say that no one cares?!"
"Because I am not worth the trouble. I'm not worth the pain. If I never existed, everything would still be the same!"

"No it wouldn't!" Olga appeared in front of me "The world would be completely different"
"That's not true"

"Olga is right, without you I would of never met someone who was like a sister to me and Matthias" Amanda agreed with Olga
"But I am replaceable" I shamed upon myself

"You will never be replaceable Georgia" Toby stated "I have never met a person that I can actually replace, because the memories would never be the same"
"The bad ones are the memories remembered most"

"Georgia, please let us help you" Holly asked
"There's no way you can help me!"
"But we can always try"

I looked at the few cuts that I had imprinted on my skin. Why would they want to help me? No one can help me. No one understand what I am going through. The cuts are proof of how much of a worthless girl I am. I became a s**t and banged with three guys. I may know them but I still banged them!

"Well, we should get going. Promise you won't do this again Georgia" Arin toned
"...I don't know if I can promise you that"

And they all left the room.

Mark's P.O.V

I saw everyone walk out of the room. Barry was talking to Dan and as I got closer, I could hear what they were saying. And boy was I surprised.

"Dan, are you sure Georgia is going to be okay with Mark?" Barry worried to him
"She said she would tell us if he played up again"
"But, it's just that she may not tell us"
"Barry, she's a grown up woman who can take care of herself"
"But-"
"What's with the but's? It's like you have a crush on her or something"

Barry was silent. Wait, does he a have a crush on Georgia?

"Barry, what's with the silence?"Dan questioned
"Well..."
"Wait, do you have a crush on Georgia?"
"I...I'm not saying anything"
"Why?"
"Because the love triangle between you and Mark for Georgia is bad enough and she doesn't need it to become a love square!"
"Aw, you have a crush on Georgia"
"Okay, so maybe I do have a crush on her but I know it's best not to be involved"
"But you need to be involved if you want her to like you"
"Ugh, I'm leaving"
"Okay, time to go home"

And then Dan and Barry left the hospital. Well bye guys! However, learning that new information is quite interesting. This love triangle is indeed now a love square because I think Georgia has feelings for all three. But the time will come where Georgia has to decided who she will love.

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Ooh! It going to get serious! That's all I can say! Thanks and Smilies!