{Luke}
I get woken up to the sound of Calum sitting in bed. He just scratches his head and he looks pretty stressed out.
"Are you okay?" I ask and he gives me a tiny smile.
"Yea.." he sighs and lays back before sliding down so that his face is level with mine. He stares deep into my eyes before leaning forward and pressing his lips against mine.
Something felt.. different. I feel like Calum isn't feeling the same thing as me. I push him away and he frowns.
"Calum do you.. not like me anymore or something? You're acting so weird." I say and Calum sits up and so do I.
"Luke.. I don't feel the same." He says and I frown. "I-I don't know how to explain it Lukey but I just feel like.. we don't..." he trails off and I look away, knowing what he means.
"We aren't acting the same around each other." Calum adds on.
"Lukey.. babe.. we're going to have to.. take a.. a-a short break." He says and I bite my lip.
"I-I think you're right." I say and he purses his lips and hugs me tightly, nuzzling his face into my neck.
"Can we just stay together one more night? I'll be out of your sight when you wake up." I say and Calum nods.
He switches off the light and we lay down. At first, we lay back to back, but then Calum slowly turns around and wraps an arm around my waist.
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{Luke}
I'm living with Halsey now, and kind of Michael because he comes over really really often. I don't really do much here, all I do is sit on the couch and just hold pillows. I do talk to Halsey sometimes but right now, I just feel like a broken person. I haven't seen Calum in probably two days but I feel like a dead person. Halsey sits beside me and wraps her arms around me and places her head on my shoulder. She decided to cut it shorter and dye it near white, and I'm in love with her hair.
"Will you eat today Lukey?" She asks and I shake my head and look down at the floor, following an ant.
"Luke.. when Michael comes home, you know he'll be pissed at you. He's treating you like a kid right now." She says and I feel a lump form in my throat.
"I want Calum." I say and she bites her lip and shakes her head.
"You've broken up babe." Halsey says softly.
"No, we're on a break, we'll get back together, right?" I say and Halsey looks away.
"Halsey.. you're supposed to help me on stuff like this." I shout and she rubs my arm.
"We'll have to see." She says and I ignore her.
"C'mon Lukey, you have to eat now." She says making me shake my head.
"I don't want to." I say.
"Luke, Michael's about to come home." She warns and I shrug.
"He can't make me." I say.
Suddenly, I hear the door unlock and Michael enter. Halsey greets him with a hug and kiss on the lips. Michael sits beside me and his eyes narrow down to slits.
"Luke.. you haven't eaten today have you?" He asks and I shake my head making Michael groan.
"You have to eat dude!" He shouts and looks over to Halsey. "Did you give him anything? Did you tell him to eat?" He asks her and she nods.
"I did! I did, Michael!" She says and he sighs, rubbing his eyes.
"Luke.. please eat, please!" Michael says and I shake my head.
"I'm not hungry." I say and he adjusts his snapback in stress, before standing up.
"I'm making you food, if you don't eat it, then - in the kindest way - I'll make you eat it." Michael says and I shake my head again. "Would you want to see Calum not eating? What would he think of you starving yourself?"
"Michael--"
"Would he think its funny? Are you really not eating just because of him?" Michael asks and tears are already streaming down my face.
"Michael, leave him alone." Halsey says.
"NO! Do you want him to starve too?!" Michael shouts.
"He's been going through a lot Mikey!" She shouts back.
"Stop.." I trail off.
"It's just a break up!" Michael screams.
"IF YOU BROKE UP WITH HALSEY WOULD YOU BE FINE?!" I shout and they both stare at me.
Suddenly, I break out into tears. I begin to sob making Michael and Halsey staring at each other before Halsey sits beside me and rubs my back.
"We're sorry Luke.." she says and I rub my eyes.
Michael sighs and pats my back.
"Do you.. want to eat?" Halsey asks softly and I nod.
I'm starving, but I feel sick when I eat. I stare at my phone and just wish I could talk to Calum. I'm waiting for a text for him. I'm just waiting for my phone screen to light up. This sucks, Calum and I have broken up twice now, maybe we're not actually supposed to be together.
Halsey brings me food and I soon begin to eat it.
{Calum}
I have no friends. I literally have no friends. Alexia and Ashton are doing their thing, I don't talk to Alex or Jack anymore because I don't party, and Luke's with Halsey and Michael. I have Harry but honestly, no fuck that. I'm home alone now and I regret doing everything so much.
I'm waiting for my phone to light up now. I've just wrapped myself in a blanket and I'm staring at my phone.
"Light up.." I whisper to myself and to the phone.
I haven't slept for the past two days. It's so cold here without Luke and I just want to cuddle him. I miss him. I miss him so much, but it was too different between us. It wasn't the same. I should've just stayed quiet, I should have stayed mute and just let depression take over.
I wish I didn't try make myself happy, I wish I didn't meet Luke so I could stay sad for the rest of my life. I've been in a relationship with sadness longer than with Luke. I feel tears fall down my face and I let out a loud wail before I begin to sob.
I need friends, I just need someone to pat my back or tell me it'll be okay, but all I have is myself right now. I bring the blanket up to my eyes and sob into the blanket.
I curse to myself at how painful this is. My heart feels like it's beating out of it's chest and I can't control anything. My whole face is wet and I feel so pathetic.
I just want a text from Luke, just one.
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A/N: i am forcing myself so hard to write rn
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