WARNING: VERY EMOTIONAL CHAPTER I CRIED WHILE WRITING IT
{Luke}
I lay on Calum's shoulder, we've been waiting here for probably two hours now and its gotten very boring. Its almost lunchtime and I'm starving and apparently so is Andrea because she's been crying for ten minutes straight.
"Do you want food?" Calum asks and I nod.
"I'll go.. get some." He says standing up hesitantly and walking away.
Okay, that was weird.
"Dear God, Alexia please feed her!" Ashton shouts.
"I didn't bring any food Ashton!" Alexia shouts and Ashton groans.
"Give her some of your boob juice." He spits.
"Excuse me?" Alexia says.
"Guys please stop, just give the kid some food." I say.
"Well maybe if this bitch wasn't too lazy to get some!" Alexia shouts.
"Oh piss off!" Ashton screams.
"Guys, everyone's staring, quiet down." I whisper, looking around.
"She's your kid too Ashton!" Alexia ignores me and I begin to panic slightly.
"What happened all weekend when you were out?!" Ashton screams back.
"I was studying all weekend!"
This is chaotic.
"Guys!" I shout but they keep screaming.
I get up and run to find Calum. He's not at the vending machine? I check all the shops, but he isn't there.
I walk up to a cashier and ask where Calum is.
"Oh I saw the brunette going upstairs to the roof. Prolly wants to calm down." The lady says and I thank her and run upstairs.
Suddenly, I feel my heart almost beat out my chest. Calum's standing at the edge of the building, about to jump off.
"CALUM!" I scream and he spins around, almost losing footing.
"GET THE FUCK OFF THERE!" I scream and I see tears streaming down his face.
"I'm done.. I'm so done Luke." He whispers.
"What?! Why?!" I scream.
"It's just not the same.. nothing's the same.." he whispers.
"Calum! You're making a huge mistake!" I scream and Calum spins back around making my heart speed up.
"Sorry Luke.. but this is my decision. We just.. we aren't the same." Calum says.
"No, no no no, we are the same Calum! Everything's the same! We're still a couple and I still love you!" I shout. As you can tell, I'm not very good at this stuff.
Calum just looks down. His feet scraping at the edge of the building. As if on cue, it begins to rain and storm.
"Why.. Why-y am I n-not scared of ju-jumping?" Calum sobs, setting me off.
"Please! Please just think for a moment! Think about everything that's ever happened!" I shout and he just continues to sob. He spins around and I slowly walk up to him.
"Just take my hand," I whisper and he stares at my outstretched hand.
"I-I'm tired of feeling things. I'm tired of everyone hating me! I just know if I jump off, nobody will care!" Calum shouts at me.
"Look at me! I'm not happy! I'm sad! I'm crying because I care! I care about you Calum a-and I love you! You're my boyfriend and I-I can't let you just do this!" I scream and Calum looks completely hurt. "I understand that this is your 'decision' or whatever, but it's the worst decision I've heard because you would hurt so many people! Think of--"
"Michael hates me." Calum cuts me off and I shake my head.
"No! He screams at you this way because he wants you to be a better person!" I say and he stays silent. "Look, I'm about to lose you forever, we've broken up a couple times and all I wanted was to be with you! We were happy a few hours ago a-and now--"
"I've been having suicidal thoughts Luke. I thought being with you again would make me happy, but.. I still feel lonely, I feel like nobody else likes me!" Calum screams and my eyes widen.
"Calum--"
"NO! I'm DONE!" He shouts and spins around.
I quickly grab his hand and he jumps off, pulling me down with him. I'm hanging off the side of the roof. Is this even reality?! What's going on!
"CALUM! DON'T!" I shout and he stares up at me, crying and sobbing.
"L-Let me go Luke, y-you know I'm scared of heights." He says, with a very sad chuckle.
"If I let go, I'm killing you Calum! I can't live with that!" I scream and Calum shakes his head.
"Nobodies killing me--"
"YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF! GET BACK UP!" I scream and he opens his hand, slipping a little.
"Let go."
"GET UP! GET UP CALUM, COME ON!" I scream.
"It's over Luke, my life was over ever since I went to parties." Calum says, emotionless.
I attempt to pull him up, sobs spilling out my lips.
"Stop it Luke."
"GET THE FUCK UP RIGHT FUCKING NOW CALUM!" I scream and he breaks out into sobs.
"DON'T DO THIS TO ME YOU ASSHOLE!" I shout.
He looks to the floor and back up at me.
"DON'T YOU FUCKING DO THIS! YOU FUCKING PRICK!" I scream.
Suddenly, his other hand grabs onto my hand, I use my other hand to pull him up. Calum climbs over the side and falls on top of me.
I sit up and hug him tightly, my hands digging into his hair as I sit him on my lap. I wrap my arms around his neck and I sob into it.
"I-I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He whispers and I squeeze him into a tighter hug.
"I hate you." I growl and I feel his weak arms wrap around my back.
"I'm never ever letting you go, got that?" I say and Calum doesn't reply, he just lays in my arms, quietly sobbing into my shoulder.
"Say something Calum.. anything.. please." I whisper.
But he doesn't reply.
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A/N: i am so sorry. im just in a very sad mood and found out i had depression woo, idk i felt like writing sad stuff so i had an actual reason to cry cuz i might be calum in the future
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