Cigarettes // cake // Sequel of Mute

Thirty Five

{Calum}
I'm so lonely. I don't have anyone. I decide to go out for the first time in a week. I haven't spoken to anyone in a whole week and it's so weird to see people again. I pull a beanie on to hide my greasy hair, and sunglasses to hide my puffy eyes.

I soon decide to go somewhere to eat, plus I'm running low on food. I settle on McDonalds and grab some food before sitting down. I notice Luke and Michael two tables away from me and I can't help but stare sadly at Luke.

I look down and pretend not to see them before eating my burger. Tears fill my eyes and I look up to see him staring at me. I instantly stand up and grab my tray and throw everything away before walking out. I can't help but keep his sad stare in my mind.

I'm not mad at him, I just can't bare to look at him. He's too beautiful, he looks too sad, but we need to be away from each other. This was all my fault in the first place and I need to pay it back. I need a drink, or a smoke. I need something. I decide to go to a party, hopefully someone would like a fight because I need blood on my knuckles.

I stop walking to the party. No, I'm trying to change. Instead I go back to my own house and stare at my pack of cigarettes. My fingers shake as I try not grab it, instead, I open my laptop and go on skype.

I click on the name of the only person I want to talk to.

'Stupid Sister'.

Mali's online. Before I can click on the green button, Mali's already calling me. I answer and her pixelated face fills the screen along with her blonde hair.

"Calum!" she says with a smile and I smile back and chuckle.

"Hello Mali." I say and her eyes narrow to slits.

"You seemed pissed, what's wrong?" She asks and I roll my eyes.

"Sometimes I wish I didn't have a sister." I sigh, rubbing my eyes making Mali giggle.

"Alright, spill it." She says.

"Luke and I are on a break." I say and her eyes widen.

"The fuck? Why?" She asks and I tell her the whole story. From me going to parties and smoking, me abusing him, to when I wanted to change for him.

"Calum.. that's-- well, thanks for telling me the truth, but.. I can see why Luke wanted to leave you." She tells me and I nod.

"Yeah, I-I just don't know what to do." I sigh and Mali thinks before saying, "Give him some time to think. Just try control yourself, okay?"

"I saw him down at McDonalds earlier today.. I just stormed out, I- He might think I'm mad at him now - which I am because I just.. wanna be with him so bad." I say.

"Well, does Luke want to be with you too?" She asks and I shrug.

That's the last thing we talk about Luke and I before we start talking about other stuff. I actually really miss Mali and i want to see her again. We talk for another hour before I end the call and shut my laptop. I groan as I rest my head on top of it.

I just want Luke back. My little Lukey. I smash the table in anger and everything makes a loud noise. I have no one anymore and it really sucks. I mean, I have Mali but she won't always be around. What if I'm the only one actually missing Luke right now? What if he doesn't miss me back? Maybe he's happy living with Halsey and all.

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I jump awake as my phone rings and I frown to see it's Michael. Isn't he really mad at me? I click on the answer button and put the phone to my ear.

"Hel--"

"HALSEY'S IN LABOUR GET YOUR ASS TO THE HOSPITAL RIGHT FUCKING NOW CALUM!" Michael shouts.

"Oh shit, okay I'll be there." I say and end the call. I'm happy they still consider me as part of their friend group. I'm surprised that Halsey suddenly went into labour today, it's so unexpected.

I change quickly as I grab my phone, slip on my vans before leaving. I take a car to the hospital and once I'm there I see Ashton, Alexia, Andrea.. and Luke are here. I feel my heart drop as I sit away from him and beside Ashton. It's quiet until Ashton whispers something.

"Huh? What did you say?" I ask.

"Talk to Luke." He whispers and I frown.

"No way Ashton, you don't know what we've been through." I say and he nudges my arm with his elbow.

I let out a sigh as I stand up before walking over to Luke and sitting beside him. He shifts around awkwardly and uncomfortably.

"Hello Lukey." I say and realize that that sounded very creepy and disturbing.

"Hi Calum." He squeaks back. Holy shit he's talking to me.

"How've you been? Has Halsey been treating you okay?" I ask.

He nods while mumbling, "Mhm."

I feel happy. Luke may not be talking to me as much as before, but at least he's talking to me.

"Have you seen her hair? She dyed it white a while ago." He says quietly.

"Seriously? She can pull off any hair." I say and Luke nods with a tiny smile forming on his lips.

A while passes before I say, "Are you still mad at me?"

Luke seems to be processing this question rather intensely. He looks away before shaking his head slightly.

"You know what? No. I'm not mad at you. I've been thinking a lot these past few weeks a-and I miss you a lot. Like, so much, its killing me." Luke says and a wide smile stretches across my face.

"Luke.. I haven't been talking to anyone ever since we broke up because.. they all seemed to have sided with you." I say, looking away and Luke places a hand on my back before pulling me into a hug. I happily hug him back before placing my hands on his cheek and pulling him in for a kiss.

I feel so happy, his soft lips are finally on mine again and all I can feel is happiness all over my body. It begins to get intense, my hands rake through his hair and he slips his tongue into my mouth.

"Woah! Chill you horny couple, we've got a one year old here." Alexia shouts and we laugh, pulling away from each other.

I guess you can say we're together again.

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A/N: SORRY SORRY IM TRYING RLY HARD TO UPDATE OKOK