{Luke}
We're still on the roof. I think Calum has fallen asleep on me. It's still raining and I'm freezing, but I'm keeping Calum warm and hugging him tightly. I'm still traumatized from what just happened, and all I want to do is just hold Calum and never ever let him go.
I pull him in closer and run my fingers through his hair as I leave a kiss on his nose, just keeping my lips there. I see him sleeping and I hold his cheek, gently ghosting my lips over his. His eyes open and he looks up at me.
"You're shaking." Calum says and I chuckle.
"I-I'm a little cold." I say, It's almost summer and it's cold, and with rain; freezing.
"Do you wanna go inside?" Calum asks and I shake my head.
"I'm keeping you warm. Just wait u-until the rain's over." I answer.
"Baby." he whines and I give him a smile.
I pull his face to mine and give him a long kiss. It was so full of meaning, I'm sure Calum felt that too, he pulls away and rests his head on my chest. I don't know what to do, Calum and I's relationship is so fucked up and right now I don't even know what we're doing.
This is like a dream come true, me being able to hold Calum and just never let him go. I can't believe he tried to kill himself. I hear him sniffling quietly and I see him crying.
"Cal, the sky's crying now because its sad that you're crying." I say, gently stroking his shoulder.
"I'm sorry sky." He says looking up and I give him a smile.
"Can we go back in now? You look freezing." Calum says and I nod.
We go downstairs, still soaking and see a stressed out Michael sitting on the waiting chairs. He looks up at us and his eyes widen.
"Where the fuck were you?!" He shouts and I look at Calum, he shakes his head slightly.
"We just decided to go hang out on the roof.." I trail off and Michael still looks like he wants an answer. "It was raining." I add on quietly.
"Where Ashton?" He asks and we shrug.
"They were fighting pretty intensely.." I trail off and Michael sighs.
"Dammit..." he curses.
"You look tense dude, what happened?" I ask.
"My girlfriend is having a fucking kid and I go outside to update everyone only to see everyone fucking gone! If you two were adopting a kid and you turned around to show us your kid and saw none of us there how would you feel?!" He shouts and I look down at Calum to see his bottom lip quivering.
"Cal.." I trail off, stepping in front of him so he can't see Michael. "He's just concerned okay? He's under a lot of stress.. he hasn't slept in a while." I whisper. "He doesn't hate you."
{Michael}
I watch as Luke steps in front of me making me roll my eyes, but I hear, "He doesn't hate you." making my eyes widen.
"Hold up," I say and Luke spins around, holding Calum's hand. "You think I hate you?" I ask and Calum looks away and nods.
"Calum I..." I trail off. "What would make you think that?"
"You always just... seem like you hate everyone. You shout at everyone a-and you just do that the most to me.." He trails off and I just stare at him with a surprised look. "I know what I did to Luke in the past was.. wrong- really wrong, but I'm trying to control myself now and you just still seem like you hate me, even if I'm trying to distance myself from Luke and trying to stop."
"Calum I don't hate you okay? I don't know what to say.." I trail off.
"Look Michael just... try very hard to be nice because... he.." Luke looks down at Calum who looks plain guilty.
"What did he do?" I ask and Luke shakes his head.
"I-It's not important, look, we're just sorry for leaving you okay? Tell Halsey we love her." Luke says and I give him a tiny nod and enter the room to see Halsey looking bored as ever.
{Luke}
"Lukey please don't tell Michael about just now.. he's gonna hate me even more." Calum whines.
"He won't Calum, look he's just tired okay? He's stressed, he's mad at everyone right now." I say.
"He hates me the most!" Calum shouts.
"Baby, don't shout, calm down." I say, holding his shoulders and gently stroking them.
We sit down and he sits on my lap, resting his head on my shoulder.
**
It's 1am. I knew it, this was just like with Alexia, it's taken more than 12 hours. Calum's awake, but he looks really tired. I've told him to sleep countless times but he wanted to stay up with me. I try put him to sleep, so I run my fingers slowly through his hair. I see his eyes beginning to flicker shut and I begin to fall asleep myself.
"No, stop trying to make me go to sleep." Calum mumbles and I kiss his cheek.
"Please just go to sleep." I say.
"No! I don't want you to be alone." He answers.
I don't answer and just hold him. His back is against my chest and his head is resting on my shoulder. I lean my head forward and onto his shoulder and begin to leave dry kisses on his neck.
"Please?" I mumble against his neck.
"No fuck you." He says and I frown and look at him, but he has a tiny smile playing on his lips.
Suddenly, the door slams open and we jump to see Michael breathing angrily.
"Woah woah, Mikey," I say and Calum and I stand up. He grunts and punches the wall in anger. "Calm down!" I shout running up to him and holding his shoulder but he twists my wrist and pushes me down.
"WHAT THE FUCK! CHILL!" Calum shouts shoving Michael against a wall.
Michael holds his head and slips down the wall as he begins crying. I get up and see a red bruise appearing on my wrist. I kneel in front of Michael and hold his shoulder.
"The fucking baby died.." he says through gritted teeth.
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A/N: i love u guys a lot, and remember; youre worth it okay? do u want to buy that dress? buy that fucking dress, do u want to eat a whole chocolate bar? eat that fucking chocolate bar. do u want to audition for something? fucking audition for it.
you were made this way for a fucking reason ok? my friend commit fucking suicide today and i feel so fucking stupid now
please dont die ok people fucking care and i am one of them
dont ever fucking doubt yourself
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Cigarettes // cake // Sequel of Mute
Fanfiction"I really miss secondary because you were actually a normal human being."
