do u see that girl over there? the one with the scars on her wrists? she cuts to feel alive.
do u see the child there crying over the dog in the road? she just lost her best friend due to some guy.
do u see the teenager over there with a look of stone? shes been hurt one to many times.
do u see me yet? do u see me at all? no? here ill explain more.
do u see the girl over there in the sweat shirt and jeans? she has body issues with herself. from being raped day in day out.
do u see that girl with the fist in the air? the one yelling so loud and clear? shes fighting because thats all shes ever known.
do u see that girl her head hung low? shes lost it all and just wont let it show.
now heres something u might just not expect to know.
but look there. see her? the one with the big smile the loud laugh? shes hiding it all her worlds crashing falling burning down. she wont show it she cant show it. she doesnt even know how. her best friend died last night. her mother a drunk. her father has run out. her body so sore. so sore from the pain so sore from the blade so sore from running ever farther away.
CAN YOU SEE ME YET?! ....do you even care to look
YOU say u love me u say u understand...but i get annoyed and u throw up ur hands
ive lost it all yet tell no one
ive felt so numb for far to long
pain ever grows the fear never leaves
but i know that for me happy is only within my dreams
yet even dreams rip that apart
even my scared and wounded heart dares to trust u dares to try
yet i know some how its all a lie
u look at me and say im fine the way i am
anyone catch that key word? fine...
i should be perfect at least body wise to u
i shouldnt have to feel like im striving to compare to every tv star or girl walking on the street
i should be alowwed to be me
just like u want to be u
let me get angry let me get sad let me need something to hold let me try to understand
all ur doing is pushing me along making me to who and what u want comparing me to ur x's ur basically saying im not good enough
but thats just it if im me im never good enough all those me's that i see when i look in the mirror i see a surviver i see a fighter ...
all U see is a person with nothing but anger u see someone less than u...less than human
my emotions mean nothin i could cry for hours and you wouldnt care...i get angry over something u know bothers me and its me angry for no reason...
but thats just it isnt it
I AM NOTHING I AM WORTHLESS
CAN YOU NOT SEE THE FIGHT I AM IN I WANT TO BE YOUR ALL I WANT YOU HAPPY YET ...you can not see me....
