The Diary of a Bitch

Why Is It Always Stormy Weather?

Thursday October 8th, 2015

Let me just talk about this song. I'll talk about me later, as if you want to hear about that anyway... The song is "Brother," by Falling In Reverse. I never thought I'd cry so hard... I mean, I cry all the time, I'm a baby, I'm sensitive. But this song brought feelings out of me that I have never felt. I don't have a brother- but... Well, look the lyrics:

Brother, why'd you have to go?
You left us all so soon.
Remember that song I wrote about your family years ago?
Well, they're all waiting for you to come home.
What do I do?
What do I say?
And Dad tells me to pray.
So I prayed and prayed but the hurt won't go away.

The pain gets worse, it never stops,
And I've asked the Lord for us to swap.
I beg and plead, 'cause you have kids to feed.

Why is it always stormy weather?
And brother,
Tell me if it all gets better.
Why did you leave?
Why did you die?
You finally made your brother cry.
I know you're watching over us tonight,
And I hope you're watching over us tonight.

I'm sorry I missed your call.
I wasn't there for you at all.
And know, I've thought it through,
Maybe if I answered you
That you would still be here all along.

Now, no more calls.
Can't you see,
I took for granted family.
And once they're gone, you'll never get that back.

No more laughs,
No more hugs,
So hold on to the ones you love.
Your soul is free,
I love you, Anthony.

And why is it always stormy weather?
And brother,
Tell me when does it get better?
Why did you leave?
Why did you die?
You finally made your brother cry.
I know you're watching over from above,
So hold on to the ones you love.

Just reading that is enough to make me emotional... I've been a Falling In Reverse fan for quite some time- but never has Ronnie Radke ever written something so beautiful... So gentle. Does he look like the type to play the piano and sing like that? (he is attractive, I'll admit...) But he went to prison (for violating his probation after his role in a shooting...) Here are some lyrics from his other songs:

"I got this new head on my shoulders and I'm lookin' for justice/So gladly seekin' out bitches that decided to talk shit/You want conflict? Well I got it and I ain't gonna stop/Until I drop or take that motherfuckin' place on top/Ain't given it back when I take that place/As a matter of fact lets cut to the chase/Gonna take that spot on top of the list quick!/Call it statutory rape/You want some beef? Better bring a fork/Cause I'm never gonna pass the torch/Gonna keep goin' with the flows exposin' you hoes to show you I'm more important/A lil' bit of dirt mixed with the mud a lil' bit of rock mixed with a thug/Gotta good heart inside my chest and a lil' bit of gangster in my blood/Been to jail I've been to prison went to hell and had a vision/Was presented with decision to change how I was livin'/Gotta give it up gotta give it back/I've had enough gotta get intact/As a matter of fact gotta get these kats in check and stack these fucking racks/Gotta get that cheese gotta get that bread gotta get that dough gotta get ahead/Gotta cut no slack to these motherfuckin' punks that held me down/BACK FROM THE DEAD, GO!" -@ approximately 2:10 of "Champion."

"My daddy told me not to bite my tongue/I hate my mama cause she left me with no love/I bottle it up and sweep it under the rug (hate my mother)/If all the good things gotta come to an end/Then we're living in a world where the evil wins/I'm obviously pessimistic, cynical, hypocritic mess." -@ approximately 0:35 of "Self-Destruct Personality."

"Don't get it twisted, ballistic, characteristics when I rip shit intricate/Visions of infinite wisdom empirical spiritual lyrical very cool synonyms/In layman's terms I am the best you must agree/I got that white boy swagger rappin' right down to a T/I got my hand up on the throttle holdin' up a broken bottle/Ready to cut you up and gut you like a fucking avocado/Desperado on the track in fact if I am gone tomorrow/Then my motto is no sorrow no apologies just karma/Don't get it twisted and delete me off your friends list/Stayin' busy tweeting hatred at me all up in my business (my business)/I'm getting kicks outta this shit like it was my sneakers/And the game fears me like a motherfucking wife beater!" -@ approximately 1:55 of "Rolling Stone."

So you tell me. Does Ronnie seem like the type of guy to write something that'll make you cry? ("I don't wanna be that guy, that makes you sad, that makes you cry again/Without a doubt sorry about fucking all your friends!" -@ approximately 2:34 of "Fashionably Late.") ... Listen to "Brother," and compare it to the other songs from that album, if you will.

Ronnie wrote that song after his brother Anthony passed away in a motor vehicle accident. Anthony, who was about four years older than Ronnie (who is thirty-one,) left behind his wife and five children... Ronnie loved the hell out of his brother. If this song doesn't make that clear, then I don't know what will.

Of course, Ronnie has written songs about showing that he cares about people, his fans especially:

"This goes out to any kid that's listening and dwindling away from the world/Curled up in a ball and then distancing themselves/Because they feel like everyone's out to hurt them/I'm here to help with this burden/I am not perfect but I'm learning to be better/So if I can help a kid that's in a struggle that juggles/With his troubles to break out of his fucking bubble/Remove the fucking muzzle hustle out of the rubble/Put the pieces back to the puzzle even if it's subtle I'm humbled/I'm not as bad as you think I'm begging and pleading for you to believe me it stinks/That everyone around me thinks that I'm a fucking machine without a heart beat/But contrary to popular belief I've got a heart in this chest/And all I want is the best for everybody but it's hard when I obsess over stress/Anxiety stricken flashing visions of prison that I suppress/My hands start shaking over my quickness of breath/Cold sweat no regrets though it's time to fucking let go/Of all the pain I've harbored I am better I will revel." -@ approximately 3:00 of "Destiny."

He also has a two year old daughter named Willow Grace. I'll add a picture of the two of them on my next update- which will include something really freaking important about Luke. I would add all of that in here, but I'm running out of time. But then again, my story has "two readers" according to Wattpad...

Can the harshest people really be so loving?