My Step Brother

My Step Brother (14)

 I couldn’t believe it all a fucking dream. I woke up to a warm hand on my right up. I slighty move forward trying to figure what how it was. I noticed Alex's head was sleeping. I looked around noticing the time. It was almost 1 A.M. In the morning, and my dad left a note. “Alex said he'd take care of you...We will stop by tomorrow for lunch! Love you, Dad. xo”.

I guess it was sort of sweet of Alex to say that, but I still was confused. I have no clue really what I'm saying. Dreams are so real, yet they can disappear. I wish I can replay all my dreams. I wish my mind would be able to be with reality. I miss how things were. My life was practically ruined. I've lost almost everything. My mom. My life. Everything. I wish things were back to normal. Now my dad with his fiance, there's new people in my life also. Alex. Tommy. Who is the right person to start a relationship with? It's wrong to love. But love is love right? Love has no boundaries.

I tried to relax myself and let my thoughts wander. Alex raised his head up. “You alright?”. My mind. It's sort of true what the Internet can say. A boy's sleepy voice is truly sexy. I didn't know what to say but stare into his half open eyes.

“I'm fine, and I can take care of myself,” I said really quick. “You can leave. I old enough...” Oh brother. (Haha funny? “Oh brother”). I can't believe I said that.

“I rather be here than anywhere else. It's really fine, okay?” His half-opened eyes started to open. I could see his blue-like silver eyes. “I really don't plan to leave, and I don't want to be with my fucking mother.”

“I wouldn't either...” My voice trailed off to random thoughts. He rather be here. With me. Okay.

“Well, at least we both agree on something,” he stated. He started to look at the walls. I looked at my hands. Man, I need a manicure. “You hungry at all? I can buy something small for you. Or maybe I can turn on the tv for you?”

“Umm, just water and tv is fine...thanks.” He walked out of the room. All I need was laid back down and turned to the window. The sight looked nice. Dark. Lights. Empty. Emptiness. Thoughts. I can mentioning thoughts because it's true. I think a lot, but I am self conscience a lot.

“Sorry, all was coffee, is that alright with you?”

“Umm yeah it's okay.” He handed me over the coffee. I'm not a huge fan of drinking dark, black coffee, but I couldn't say no. It would have been sort of rude to say no. He walked over to the television and started trying to find shows. There was really much. Commercials. Disney. Cooking. Ugh.

We ended up watching an old Disney. Beauty and the Beast. It'd be cool to be a princess. Life. Happiness. A prince. I ended up drinking all of my coffee, without knowing, halfway of the movie. “Can I ask you a question? Just like a simple 'yes or no'?”. I started to worry a little bit when he said that. What was he going to ask me?

“Umm, sure?”

“Do you love me?”

“I'm sorry, can you say that again?” I actually did hear him that time. I wanted to hear it again.

“I said, do you love me? I know it's a crazy question. To be honest, I love you. Yes, you're going to be my stepsister but I just don't know. I find it weird. I've liked a girl before. But not like you. It's more than like. I have a feeling of love. I don't want to lose you, even though we'll be under the same roof. I just don't fucking know what to do. My heart says I love you, but my mind says it's wrong-”

“I love you...” I said it. To make him stop. I didn't want to hear it anymore. I don't. I'm tired. I'm weak. I'm feel bad. I'm confused. I want everything to stop. Everything to freeze.

“What did you say?”

“I. Love. You.”

Teehee. What you think? Hmm. Hmm. I'm going to write more in this summer after Driver's Ed. Woo! That's so much for 1,000+ views! Mwahh! Woo! Hopefully there will be more situations, characters, etc. I'm excited.

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MMD