Risk it all |L.T |

Chapter 33

I'm literally waiting for the sofa to open up and swallow me.
I can tell instantly from Louis' tone how annoyed he is, add that to the fact he's been drinking and I just know it isn't a good combination.
"Me... I think you'll find the real question here is what are YOU doing here Louis."
"Move!" I hear him knock Harry out of the doorway and he stumbles down the hall "tell him!" He shouts at me.
I feel like the whole inside of me is shaking, I feel sick.
No I'm not doing this, he's not dictating what I can and can't do and as much as I know that I'm putting my job at risk for him I'm not telling Harry, not now and not like this.
"Tell him what Louis" I grumble through gritted teeth.
"Tell him about us."
I glance over at Harry he looks lost and confused and then I look back to Louis, the anger clear on his face.
Fuck Frankie you idiot you really have played with fire this time.
Swallowing harshly I open my mouth to speak but no sound comes out. I try again and it's the same.
"Louis, you've clearly been drinking." Harry says
"No shit Sherlock."
"Maybe you should sleep it off, and we'll all talk  in the morning." He adds before sitting at the side of me making Louis' face twist even more
"No! Fuck you, I want to talk now.... Frankie" he's almost pleading with me I can't do it I really can't.
"I... I've told Harry, I've told him how you sometimes stay here when you've been out because it's closer than you going home."
I watch his expression changes, there's a sly smile and I know he's planning something.
"Oh really... Have you told him That I kissed you." Louis never takes his eyes off Harry. The two of them are locked in some kind of silent battle.
The trembling feeling running though me makes me want to leap off the sofa and slap him, he knows we can't say anything.
"You're lying." Harry mumbles his hands twisting into balls.
The cocky smile is back on Louis' face "ask her" he spits at me.
I close my eyes ready for the question but it doesn't come.
I open my eyes and Harry is lent right in front of me, his beautiful green eyes feel liked they're staring into my soul. "Has he kissed you." He barely whispers. I can tell he feels really awkward asking me that question.
"Yes.... But it's not how you think." Before I can stop him Harry is on his feet and across the room standing right in front of Louis.
"YOU HAD TO DIDN'T YOU.... COULDN'T LEAVE THINGS ALONE!"
Louis smirks at him before pulling a slice of pizza from the box and eating it like a spoilt child that's got his own way.
"Harry... Harry.. It wasn't like that, he was drunk, he made a move, I pushed him away." I jump between the two of them.
I'm not going to let Louis spoil everything because he's drunk and jealous.
"Well Louis" Harry takes his eyes off me and fixes them on Louis, I turn to face him almost pleading with him not to do this, not like this it's not fair.
"Fine what she said" he huffs.
Before I have chance to gather any sort of thought and clam down, Harrys fist comes from no where and connects with Louis' jaw.
SHIT!
"HARRY, what did you do that for?" I turn to Louis who's clinging on to the work surface for support his face down on his arm. "Louis are you okay?"
The silence seems to last for hours and I'm torn between doing the right thing and following my heart.
FUCK why does it have to be this hard!
"I'm sorry Frankie but he deserved it, Lou you're my best friend but at times you're such a brat I could kill you." Harry takes a deep breath and goes back to sit on the sofa leaving me still stood with Louis.
"Louis..... Are you ok?" I whisper my head down resting at the side of his. He doesn't say a word just opens his eyes and I can see tears in them, I don't know if it's because he's hurt from Harry hitting him or because I wouldn't confess.
"Louis..." I reach my hand towards him he doesn't move or react. 'I love you' I mouth the words and watch as a single tear falls from his eyes and hits his arm.
"Come on Louis let's get you cleaned up." I put my arm around him a guide him to the bathroom.
"I'll be back in a sec Harry."
He just nods at me from where he's sat, I be never seen him like that before and I can tell he just needs to calm down.

Closing the bathroom door Louis literally falls into my arms.
"Why didn't you tell him?"
"I couldn't Louis, I love you I really do but telling him now and like that would effect my job and I don't want that."
He doesn't say anything he just stares into space.
I grab a cloth from the sink and run it under the cold tap before holding it to the side of Louis' mouth. There's a small cut and no doubt he'll have a nice bruise in the morning but he's ok.
"I'm sorry...."
His words startle me and I stand back to look at him, his ice blue eyes look so sad, his soft floppy hair falling all over the place, even though he's a total mess right now he's somehow never looked more beautiful. Even though beautiful is a odd choice of word for a man, he really is beautiful.
"I've..... Ive never felt like this about anyone, I don't know how to deal with it. I know the boys are used to my fuck 'Um and leave 'um attitude and I think that's why Harry is protective over you."
I step forward pressing my head against his. "I'm in love with you Louis, completely and hopelessly in love with you. I don't want Harry or anyone else I only want you but the time has to be right to tell him." He wraps his arm around my waist pulling my body close to his.
"I know, I know and I'm sorry for being a dick."
Before he can say anything else I gently press my lips to his. I can tell by how gentle and passionate he is that he's pouring everyone ounce of emotion into kissing me, his arms feel so strong wrapped around me and I've never felt so needed by him. The way he's soft and gentle yet how passionate he is just make me realise how much he needs me and need him. It takes my restraint not to pull his top off and make love to him right here and now in my bathroom.
I slowly pull away not wanting to lose the warmth of him wrapped around me.
"Ok, you get cleaned up and go to my room when you're done, I'll go and talk to Harry."
He nods his head I quickly kiss his cheek before leaving the bathroom.

Harry is staring into space as I enter the living room.
"Harry... Are you ok?"
He quickly shakes his head from what ever it is that he's thinking before answering me.
"I'm fine, how's Lou?"
"He's ok, think he'll have a nice bruise in the morning."
"I'm so sorry Frankie, I don't normally react like that, but I know Louis and I just don't want him to use you."
I cross the room to sit with him.
"He's not going to use me Harry. Trust me."
"Do you have feelings for him?"
His question takes me back. Should I be honest or carry on playing dumb.
"I'm not going to lie Harry, I've grown quite close to him and there defiantly an attraction there, but I know I'd be risking my job if it was more than that."
"Just promise me one thing, if it ever does become more than that please tell me. I want you to be able to tell me anything, I'd like to think we're friends now... Other than the boys you're one of the people I'm closest to and hope you feel the same."
I smile at him, he's right we are friends and we spend an awful lot of time together.
"I do Harry and I love spending time with you, it's not just a job to me you're my friend."
He's cute dimpled smile is back. He leaps forward and pulling me into his arms to hug me. "You have no idea how glad I am that you agreed to this job."