Risk it all |L.T |

Chapter 44

That is not how things were supposed to go.
My mum and Louis were not supposed to meet like that.
Her bitter words to him, asking him how he dare interfere with with someone in a relationship. His reaction, telling her it's none of her fucking business. Me with tears falling from eyes. Why does everything I do turn to shit!
Neither of them would let me speak, the room was spinning and all I could think was I need to get out of here...
Storming down the road without a coat wasn't the best idea it's fucking freezing, but I needed to escape.
"FRANKIE.... Wait please" Louis comes running down the road after me. "Please stop."
I turn on my heels to face him, tears still running down my cheeks.
"Please tell me that she's kidding."
My eyes fall to the floor, I want to tell him that's she's got it wrong but I can't.
"You've got to be fucking kidding me." He throws his arms in the air, I knew he would be mad that's why I've put it off all day.
"I tried to tell you but..."
"But what?" He cuts me off "how long has this been planned?"
"Christmas Eve, Harry came over to bring me a gift which was the ticket to New York for New Year. I've wanted to tell you since then but I was scared of your reaction, I know how much it pisses you off when I have to do things for work with him."
"Work is one thing but this is totally different, it's supposed to be time off you don't have to see him unless you want to. Then you tell me that he's been here, to your home and now you're gonna jump on a fucking plane and fly half way across the world with him. When do you leave?"
"Tomorrow."
"Fucks sake Frankie... I can't handle this." He lifts his hands in defeat. Before I can stop him he's in his car, speeding down the street leaving me stood there crying.

"No mum I don't want to talk to you, just leave me alone." Slamming the boot of my car where I've just thrown my bag for New York.
"He deserved to know, and you should know better look at how things turned out with your dad, seeing two people at one time is never going to work out."
"Mum you know nothing about it, or me and my life for that matter. I'm going."
Starting the engine of my car, I can't wait to be away from her and from here, this place is filled with bad memories and now I've just added one more.

Louis won't answer his phone, I drove to his house and his car isn't there I have no idea where he is, or how I'm going to fix this.
I pull into the services and grab my phone from my bag, one last try. Straight to his voicemail again.
"Louis.... I'm sorry, I should have told you sooner. Please please call me back I hate this."
Throwing my phone on the passenger seat I turn back onto the road, only one place for me to go.

I'm sure this is the right place, it all looks familiar. Driving slowly down the street looking for his car I must look like a right creep.
Bingo... There it is. I take a deep breath knowing all too well that I'm about to fall apart, he won't mind me coming here, or at least I hope he won't.
Shaking I ring the bell  and wait.
I can hear him behind he door, that all too familiar voice, I can already feel the tears in my eyes.
As the door opens I know he's shocked to see me, but I need someone. Leaping forward I almost fling myself into his arms.
"Frankie.... Is everything okay."
His words alone cause the tears spill from my eyes as I shake my head on his shoulder.
"Oh Harry, I'm so sorry I didn't know where else to go."
Pulling me through the door and closing it behind. "Take a deep breath and tell me what's wrong."
"It's Louis.... And my mum."
"Okay okay, let's sit you down and you can tell me what's been going on."

He takes me through, Anne, her husband and Harrys sister are all there and I feel like such a fool for turning up unannounced and in tears.
Anne makes me drink while I try to calm down enough to explain to Harry.
"Okay tell me what's happened."
"Louis.... We spent the day together, we had a really nice time, I was planning on telling him about New York with you but It was hard I let putting it off, and when he took me home my mum caught us kissing."
I spare the details of exactly what my mum caught. Anne and his sister look. Little shocked, I'm guessing he clearly hasn't filled them in on what's been happening.
"Alright... Then what happened."
"My mum, yelled at me for making a mistake, she told Louis about New York, he yelled at her it was a mess. My head was spinning so I left, Louis followed me and when I told him everything about the trip he lost it, he drove off and I can't find him he won't answer my calls its such a mess."
Wrapping his arms around me and pulling me into his chest.
"I did tell you things wouldn't be easy with Louis, don't worry I'll call him."
Harry gets up leaving me with his mum who quickly comes to comfort me. "What about your mum Frankie?"
"We don't get along that well, so I just told her I was leaving."
"Don't worry, you can stay here tonight. You're leaving tomorrow anyway. I'll call her if you like... Your mum and let her know that you're safe."
"Thank you" I say passing her my phone.
Why is my life so messy, it was meant to be simple, why did I have to complicate things by falling in love with Louis.... Why couldn't I fall in love with Harry at least that way I wouldn't have to put up with all the secrets and lies and worrying about how Louis is going to react all the time.
"Frankie... Louis is fine, I've just spoke to him. He's a bit annoyed that why he's not answering your calls. He wants you to let him know when we land tomorrow."
Standing to hug him "Thank you Harry, I honestly don't know what I'd do without you."

Sleeping is hard, it feels like every two minutes I turn over and check my phone. Checking for messages or a call from Louis. Checking the time. Finally after fiddling with my phone for far too long I scroll through my pictures before finding the one I took of Louis' hand wrapped around mine after he gave me the ring, I decide to send it to him with a simple message.

To:Louis
3:19am
I can't sleep, I miss you, I love you
PROMISE xxx

I wait patiently incase he replies... Ten, twenty, thirty minutes, nothing. I lay in the dark as tears fall over my cheeks, I hate the fact he won't answer, the only peace of mind I have is that he's not in London, he's with his family so the chances of him going clubbing are a lot less.

"Wakey Wakey." Harry whispers as he walks into the door with a cup of coffee. I honestly feel like I've just closed my eyes and now it's time to get up.
"What time is it?" I ask sitting up and rubbing my eyes.
"It's just after 4am, we need to leaving here by 5am. Hope you're ready for this." His excitement is almost contagious, if it wasn't for the fact I'm unbelievably shattered and once again don't know where I stand with Louis I'd probably be just as excited.

The road to the airport is almost dead, the mix of the early time we left and that its just after Christmas not a lot of people are on the road.
I've kept my phone in my hand, I let Louis know we were leaving not that he replied.
Harry singing along to some cheesy song on the radio makes me smile, his huge dimpled grin. He's so happy.... Wish I felt the same.
An hour later we're almost at the airport, I'm dreading trying to get through the airport and and actually on the plane with Harry, everywhere we go it's chaos.
To my surprise everything seems to be under control, we pass the odd couple of people who seem to stare for a little longer as if they they're trying to work out who we are, before I know it we're boarding the plane, I've never known it to happen quite so quickly.
"You ready for this?"
"Yeah, I can't wait." I'm almost telling the truth, I am excited but missing Louis and how tired I am is really having an effect.
"It's a pretty long flight maybe you should get some sleep, I know you didn't sleep too well last night."
"How do you know that?"
"I'm only in the next room, I could hear you tossing and turning I.... Erm I was going to check on you but I figured it wasn't me that you wanted."
Gulping down the air that I feel has just been knocked from me I try and contain my tears, it's almost impossible as blink and they fall down my cheeks.
"I'm so sorry Harry.... I just want him to talk to me, I'm going to be so far away all I want is to hear his voice and for him to say everything is okay." I twist the ring on my finger remembering how happy I felt just a few days ago.
"Hey, it's ok... Everything will be fine I promise." His eyes follow mine down to my hand where the ring he gave me is sat. "What's that?" He questions.
Closing my eyes before I have capability to answer him. "It's a promise ring."
"Did he give you that?"
I nod my head more tears falling from eyes.
"Frankie please don't cry."
He pulls me into his chest and holds onto me tightly, I can't stop my self all my emotion comes tumbling out as I sob into his chest. He holds on to me even tighter. I can't believe how much of an effect this is having on me I'm never this emotional.
I cry until I can't cry anymore until I give in to the tiredness and feel myself falling asleep with my head on Harrys chest.

I wake to the sound of Harrys laughter, it takes me a few seconds to register where I am....
A blanket draped over me and soft pillow under my head. Rubbing my eyes, they don't feel as sore as they did earlier.
"Hey sleepy head, are you feeling better now?" Harry asks taking off his headphones.
"Mmm much, have I been sleeping long?"
"A good couple of hours... Put it this way, it won't be long until we're landing."
"Oh shit, I'm so sorry, I'm really not very good company am I?"
"Don't be silly, you needed to sleep. I'm just glad you're feeling better." I smile at him feeling much better than I did before, I need to push Louis to the back of my mind his jealousy is suffocating me, Harry is my friend and we work together, he's also Louis' friend he needs to trust us.... He needs to trust me.