Risk it all |L.T |

Chapter 57

The show is amazing as always, it never gets old standing at the side of the stage watching them perform.
Every night someone different seems to join us, another member of the crew, the odd family members here and there, the only constants are Lou and Sophia.
I still find it amazing that people stop us and ask if they can have a photo with us, Sophia and I have taken to pulling silly faces and doing crazy poses. Tonight just for the fun of it we're both wearing one of the T shirts from the merchandise stand along with the flashing 1D bows that are being sold. As soon as the boys spot us they start laughing and all come to the end of the stage to take a picture which sets the fans off taking pictures too.
The more we seem to laugh the more fun the boys seem to have.
Louis thought pouring water down Liam's back would be fun which soon escalated into a full blown water fight, Niall on be other hand wasn't so impressed, especially when some almost hit his guitar.

As the show comes to a close both Liam and Louis are drenched from head to toe, I can't help but smile as they run past us and flick some water as they go.
It's chaos backstage, people everywhere. Sophia and I make our way to dressing rooms as always to try and stay out of the way. It's not long before Louis comes bounding through the door all smiles and giggly.
"Did you have fun tonight?" I ask as he flops in the seat beside me.
"Yeah so much fun, don't think payno saw the water coming and now he's crying like a girl because it went all over his phone. How about you? You definitely looked happy, nice T shirt by the way."
"We had a few giggles." Sophia and I both start laughing at the same time, we certainly have had fun tonight.
"I better go and find Liam."
"Yeah good idea, tell him to pick his bottom
Lip up." Louis starts laughing at himself.
"Will do, see you guys later."
As soon as the door clicks closed Louis almost jumps on me, his lips frantically kissing along my jaw and down my neck.
"Woah there tiger, you're like a horny teenager."
"Can you blame me, I mean come on you look hot even in this stupid band T shirt, and your tits." Sliding his hand underneath the soft fabric he gently cups my breasts through my bra.
"Louis.... Stop, anyone would could walk in."
Without saying a word he just smirks at me, and I know it's the danger that he likes. His lips land on mine in heated kiss and I can't resist the temptation, wrapping my arms around his neck pulling him in closer to me.
"Okay, okay" I almost gasp in between kissing him "we really have to stop, this isn't safe there too many people just outside that door."
Pouting at me like a naughty child he finally stops, and as much as I hate it I'm almost relived, I can't quite handle that level of dangerous.
"Come on we really should get back on the bus."
Grabbing my hand and pulling me along behind him we leave another arena and get on the bus ready for the next destination.

The feeling of Louis arms around me and the soft gentle sound of him snoring is my idea of heaven. Lay in bed with him my back against his chest, our legs a tangled mess I'm so unbelievably happy. Running my hand over my ever growing bump louis' soon follows and his fingers inter lock with mine. Oh if only this was how it could be every day, just me and him in our own perfect little bubble, away from the world, watching our baby grow inside me, preparing for his or her arrival, putting up a cot and decorating a nursery. The wet feeling that drips from my nose makes me aware of a tear that I didn't even know I was crying, but I'm not crying not really. I'm happy but I just want to be 'normal' to do all the things expectant parents should be doing but instead were hidden away. Another tear falls making the pillow even wetter. Shit I've got to stop crying.
Slowly unraveling myself from Louis I make my way to the bathroom to wash my face and try and pull myself together.
It's not long before there's a tap on the door.
"Frankie.... Is everything ok? Can I get you anything?"
I open the door Louis stands there in just his boxer shorts all messy hair and sleep in his eyes.
"Baby, what's wrong?" Instantly pulling me into his arms. That only makes me worse and tears flood from my eyes.
"Frankie, please talk to me what's wrong."
"I don't know, I.. I... I was just thinking about us and the baby and I started crying and now I can't stop."
Guiding me back into the bedroom his arms wrapped firmly around me.
"There's no need to cry, I love you... Both of you and I can't wait for us to be a little family."
His words make me worse and before I know it I'm sobbing almost uncontrollably. "I know you do, but I just want to everything we should be doing, I want to get excited and pick out our baby's nursery together."
"We can still do that."
"We can't Louis, everything's has to be hidden, it's all a secret and it's killing me."
"It won't be this way forever, just a few more weeks and your contract is over."
"I know, but then what? We can't just announce were together and I'm pregnant, it won't make sense."
"We'll deal with that when the times comes, but for now please please don't cry, get your self dressed and let's go meet everyone for breakfast.
Nodding my head I do as he says. I know he doesn't have the answers right now but it doesn't stop me from worrying.

I hate not being able to walk through the hotel and hold his hand, and we have to just appear as friends. As soon as I join Harry it's straight into work mode sitting by his side and him greeting me with a kiss on the cheek. It's becoming hard to keep up he act, I'm craving Louis more and more, I just want to be next to him and be able to touch him, it's him I want to drape his arm over the back of my chair and softly rub my shoulder, it's him I want to lean into because I'm still feeling sleepy and emotional, but no it's Harry... I have to live up to the pretence with Harry.
The chatter at the table is loud, the boys are all in such good Sprits with the tour going so well. No one notices that I've just faded into the back ground lost in my own thoughts.
"Excuse me, I'll be back in a second." Harry says before leaving the table, I have no idea what he's talking about I'm just oblivious to anything.
I watch as he paces just outside the dining room on his phone, he looks concerned. He shakes his head a few times before looking back towards the table where everyone is still seated.
"What's up with Harry?" Louis asks looking as concerned as he does.
"I have no idea, he just said he'd be back soon."
We both watch until Harry finally slides his phone back into his pocket and joins us back at the table.
"Everything ok haz?" Liam asks from across the table.
"Yeah... Yeah all fine."
I glance from Harry to Louis and back again, there's something wrong I just know it.
"Whats happened." I whisper in Harrys ear
He looks at me his face full of concern
"We've got to go to London."
"Who has"
"We have, you and me."
"Wait... What."
"Modest called me there's been some developments with us apparently and they've called an emergency meeting."
Oh shit oh shit an emergency meeting, what about, why, why have they called Harry, why not me, oh god.
"Frankie..." Louis rests his hand on my thigh causing my to turn towards him.
"What is it?"
"Modest"
I watch the colour drain from face as he looks at Harry almost as if he wants to tell him I'm going crazy.
"They've called an emergency meeting for me and Harry... Today."