Risk it all |L.T |

Chapter 62

Two days...
It's only been two days and I feel like part of me is missing. In all the time I've been living in London away from all my family and friends I've never ever felt as alone as I do now.
Driving Louis to the airport I think my heart broke a little more every minute we were on the road, knowing it was one minute closer to saying goodbye to him. He tried to make me smile and constantly told me how much he loved me, but it didn't make it any better knowing he's going to be gone for long tears me apart.
I wasn't 'aloud' to leave the car incase we were seen, this was the first step of modest making it look like Harry and I were having troubles. We saw Harry arrive at the airport a few paps following him no doubt asking intrusive questions, he waved and blew a kiss when he saw my car but made it seem like he was waving to a few fans that were around.
I tried my hardest not to cry as I kissed Louis for the final time then watched him pick up his bag and follow through the same door that Harry had just gone though, turning around and waving before finally going out of my sight and right there in that moment I crumbled, there was no way I could drive home I just sat there in my car, constant tears falling from my eyes god I miss him already and he's only just left.
When I did finally make it home I was exhausted, taking myself to bed wearing louis' hoodie the sent of him all over it made me feel safe and even though I knew his phone wouldn't be on I had to send him a message.

To: Louis
12:04am
Have a safe flight, I miss
You already. Love you xx

Going to sleep with tears still falling I honestly have no idea how I'm going to cope for the next three months.

Today... Well today it still hurts just as much that he's not here, but I haven't cried as much and knowing that he's going to Skype me as soon as he wakes up makes me feel a little better.
I'm trying to keep myself busy, tidying the apartment, I've picked up some groceries and made an appointment to visit the midwife for a check up, knowing that I'll be doing that alone makes me sad but I know have to keep myself healthy and check that everything is ok with our baby.
When I hear my phone ringing I almost fly out of my skin, the silence of the last couple days is really starting to get to me. I don't recognise the number on the screen.
"Hello.." I nervously say through the receiver hoping it's not the press.
"Ah, Frankie. I was hoping this was still your number."
Melanie.... Seriously fucking Melanie, what the hell does she want.
"Hi Melanie"
"Hello, I hear that things have come to an end between you and my father."
"My contract had ended yes."
"Ahh, as I thought. Well since it has come to an end I have to make you aware that you are expected to start back working for me."
"Oh right, to be honest Melanie I hadn't even thought about it."
"That's fine, I didn't expect you would. I just need to make sure that you know you will be expected back in the office on Monday, if there is any problems we can arrange a meeting to discuss what you need or if you want to hand in your notice I expect four weeks."
Ugh, I feel myself roll my eyes at her even though she isn't here.
"That's fine Melanie, I will be at work on Monday."
"Okay.. See you then."
With that the line goes dead, God I hate that woman!
I hadn't even thought about work, I've got to go back the that hell hole I have bills to pay. Oh god... I'm going to have to tell her I'm pregnant, and my parents... Shit I'm going to have to tell my parents because if I don't Mel will, I know she will tell my dad and then my dad will call my mum and ugh. I'm almost 13 weeks pregnant so I guess it's ok to start telling people, that and the fact my bump is growing quite rapidly so hiding it much longer is going to be hard. God I wish Louis was here, I wonder if he's told his mum yet, I don't even know... And with out even realising I'm crying again. I need him here.

Almost 4pm and I'm sat with my laptop on my knee waiting, I've never been so impatient in my life.
I've put makeup on and done my hair and I have butterflies waiting for him, I'm so desperate to see him and hear his voice.
When  the call finally comes I'm almost shaking I'm so excited.
"Hey beautiful."
"Louis..."
God it's so good to hear his voice. He looks tired, his soft fluffy hair falling all over the place and there's a croak in his tone that he get when he's not been awake too long.
"Oh baby I'm missing you."
"I'm missing you too so much." I don't tell him that about struggling to sleep because I wonder where he is and what he's doing.
"What's it like in Baltimore?"
"Meh, it's okay. We don't really get to see much. We've got a show tonight, it's the first one since we got here, feels so strange not having you around."
"It feels strange not being with you guys, how is everyone?"
"They're all doing fine, Frankie I don't wanna talk about them or work I wanna know how you are, how's the baby? Any more morning sickness?"
"We're doing just fine Louis, I have an appointment to see the midwife soon, it nothing to worry about just a check up to make sure I'm ok and listen to the heartbeat... Or at least that's what I think it is."
"promise you'll tell me everything, and record the heartbeat for me, I hate that I'm missing all of this."
"Louis it's fine. I promise. Hey I start back at work on Monday."
"Work?" He screws his face up all confused.
"Yeah, you know for Melanie. Now my contract is over I have to go back to normal life."
"I hate her, don't take any shit from her. Besides you don't need to work I can look after you."
"You already do look after me but I have to be independent, I want to be insensate. Plus I'd go crazy being stuck in the apartment all the time."
"Okay okay."