Risk it all |L.T |

Chapter 48

Standing so far apart it's almost like we're strangers. Not too long ago sneaking into an empty with Louis would have filled me with excitement, there would butterfly's in my tummy and sexual tension between us.
Now I'm so nervous it's making me feel sick, my hands are shaking and I have no idea how to even start a conversation with him.
"So.... What is it you so desperately need to talk to me about?"
"It's, well it's really hard to explain. I don't want to do it here, I think we need to arrange to meet somewhere and do this properly."
Unfolding my arms from my chest I run them over my thighs to see if they are physically shaking, I feel like I'm shaking from head to toe.
"Your ring...."
"What?"
"You're not wearing your ring."
He walks over to me trapping me between him and the wall, pulling my hand from my thigh to examine it. His touch still soft and gently, his hands are warm but I feel goosebumps rise along my arm from his touch.
"No... I'm not wearing, it's at home. It didn't feel right to wear it after... Well you know but it's there waiting for you."
"For me what do I want it for?"
"Well the promise you made when you gave it to me is non existent anymore Louis, you broke that when you broke my heart."
Dropping my hand using his hands to cover his face as he shakes his head.
"No no no, I didn't mean for this to happen. I'm sorry Frankie."
"It's a bit late for sorry, I called and texted you every single day and you ignored me, it didn't have to be like this Louis."
"How else was it supposed to be Frankie, you left me again for him!"
"Oh my god I can't keep having this same argument with you. Harry is my friend, yes we are close, yes we spend time together but that's it. I'm not sleeping with him, I'm not in love with him I'm just doing my job. You know what call me when you grow up and maybe then we can talk."
I storm past him and grab hold of the door, just as I'm about to pull it open he slides his arm around my waist over my stomach and pulls me back.
"Get the fuck off me! Do not grab me!"
"Frankie... Calm down I just wanted you stop."
"Well then ask me don't pull me around, not now."
"Not now... What the fuck do you mean not now!" Both of us are clearly getting frustrated, voices are raised, I can't take it anymore. I sink to the floor wrapping my arms around myself.
"I'm pregnant Louis." My voice barely a whisper after all the shouting "I'm pregnant."

He walks over to me and sinks down to the floor with me.
"You're pregnant.... Seriously."
Closing my eyes I slowly nod my head.
"How long have you known?"
"Since I collapsed on New Year's Eve, the doctor at the hospital told me."
The shock is clear to see on his face. He edges closer to me before finally opening his arms and pulling me into them, I don't fight it or pull away I just stay there crying onto his chest, all the hurt and pain of the last ten days pouring from me.

The creak of the door makes me open my eyes. Harry is stood there "I hate to interrupt, at least things seem better between you two. People are starting to ask where you are."
"We'll be there in two minutes haz."
"Okay."
The door closes, l finally pull away from Louis. "Okay I... We have work to do but please, please can I come over tonight."
"Yeah, we have a lot to talk about."
"I see now why you didn't want to do this over the phone." He kisses the top of my head before standing up and putting out his hand to pull me from the floor.
"Shit... Erm sorry, old habits die hard I suppose." A small smile tugs at the corner of his mouth, God I've missed him.

Watching the boys run though their set list for the upcoming tour always makes me smile they can't do it seriously. Louis seems so distracted and after the bomb shell I dropped I totally understand why, occasionally he glances my way, every time he does a shiver runs through me all I want is to hold him, despite how much he's hurt me seeing him has made me realise just how much I love him.
I love him so much it scares me, it's like he has an invisible hold over me. Without even realising what I'm doing I rest my hand over my stomach, Louis is watching my every movement he almost seems concerned.

"Okay guys, I think we can call it a day there one more rehearsal and it'll soon be time to hit the road."
They all cheer and mess around seeming quite excited that their day is over or maybe it's the excitement of an upcoming tour.
"Harry, Frankie. I've been asked to remind you that you have a meeting over at modest with Mr Beaumont."
"Yeah we know, I drove Frankie here today so we'll leave soon." Harry adds putting away the stand he's been using.
I put my jacket on and throw my things in my bag. When I look up I'm greeted by a pair of endless legs, before I even get to his face I know it's Harry waiting for me. He pulls me to my feet and puts his arm around my shoulder, I can feel Louis' eyes on us it's almost like they're burning.
"We're off, modest calling. See you all tomorrow."
There's a chorus of 'byes' before Liam comes over "been good to see you again Frankie, are you coming on tour with us?"
"Erm i have no idea."
"Sophia is hoping you do, or that you are at least with us the dates she is, apparently I'm not much fun for girl stuff."
I can't stop the giggle that escapes, I can just imagine her painting Liam's nails and the pair of them sat around with face masks on.
"I hope so too, she's great." His face lights up at the mention of her, he gives me a quick hug and pats Harry on the back.
"Okay we really have to go."
"Oi wait a sec." Louis comes running over.
"Please call me later...." Everyone assumes Louis is talking to Harry as I say "I will." I feel all eyes on me.
"Promise..."
"I promise Louis."
Before I can say anything else or anyone can ask what's going on Harry is guiding me out of the door leaving Louis to face the questions.