Outlawed | Chris Evans

Chapter Thirteen | Let The Rain Wash Away

"I don't know what to write." I say to Mr. Renner, looking blankly at my several college application sheets.

"They want you to know why you choose them, give them a reason."

"I'm not sure if I want to apply to Cambridge. I probably won't get in and I'll be very disappointed. Let's go for a little bit less fancy colleges."

"Does your parents know that you plan on going to the UK?" He said. I immediately thought of Chris. I haven't told him that I applied to some schools in the uk. Almost all of the schools I've chosen were in England. I didn't know how he would react to it so I was very hesitant to tell him. I shook my head.

"Not yet." I say scratching my neck.

"Okay, I gotta go and you gotta talk to your parents."

"I don't know how to tell them."

"Just slide into their dm's ;))." Mr. Renner said and I laughed. It's really funny when a man in his 30's try to use teenage slang words.

I left the school building, the thing that bothered me was I did in fact told my parents and even my friends about England. Everyone knew except Chris.
I came to Phoebe's place, she was sitting on a bench texting, I sat next to her.

"Who are you talking to?"

"Your boyfriend. He couldn't reach you so he called me." All of a sudden I got very anxious, there's a very high chance that Phoebe may have spit out the subject to him.

"What did you talked about?"

"He asked where you were and I said at school and he said why and I said you were filling application forms with Mr. Renner and he was like 'oh really?' I was like ya, then he asked if I knew where you were applying and i-" She got interrupted by my phone ringing, I see Chris' name on the screen along with a photo of us. My hands were sweating. He probably called about what Phoebe said.

"GODDAMIT PHOEBE!" I said and opened the phone.

"Hey, how you doin?" I try to say casually.

"We need to talk." I give a death stare at phoebe.

"Dude, chill, you're trippin homie." Dammit Kat, this always happens when I'm nervous and try to talk normally.

"Come over or I will." He says in a demanding tone. He really is mad.

"K." I say and hung up.

"You couldn't keep your mouth shut." I turn to Phoebe.

"I thought you'd tell him."

"I was going to! Okay whatever we'll talk about this later." I grabbed my backpack from the bench and walked to his place.

When I arrived, I took a deep breath and knocked 3 times. I tidied my hair to look as cute as possible. Maybe he'll be less mad. He opened the door, not even looking at me he motioned me to get in. I walked in, took off my coat and scarf. I turned to him, he had already sat on the couch. I sit next to him and placed my hand on his knee. He removed my hand, it really broke my heart, that's when I realized I've done a huge mistake.

"Chris..?" My voice got cracked.

"You have a lot of explaining to do." He said, still not looking at me. I sighed.

"I know, where do you want me to start?"

"Filling application forms with him? Without letting me know. He knew about England before me. All of your friends family knew and I am the last person to learn and it's not even from you." He snapped.

"Let me clear something up, you just transferred here, he knows a lot about college applications and ways. That's why I filled forms with him. And he had to know where I was applying to fill in the forms accurately. I was going to tell you but I didn't know how to bring it up."

"Bring what up?" I closed my eyes and spit the subject out.

"That all of my college applications were to England." I said in a breath. He didn't said anything for a minute, he wiped his face and left a sigh.

"All of them?" He said quietly.

"All of them."

He got up and tied his arms, looked out of the window. I hated myself so much. I didn't had the right to hurt him so much.

"Please say something." My voice comes out broken. He turned to my side.

"What do you want to hear?" I look away. I didn't wanted to cry. Not right now. I squeezed my hand. I was trying my best not to tear up. I looked up to the ceiling.

"You don't have to do this." I say to him.

"Do what?"

"You don't have to be with me." A tear comes out but I quickly wipe it away. He doesn't say anything. I have to leave, right now or else I'm going to drown in my own tears. I didn't even bothered to grab my coat or scarf. He didn't stopped me. I get out as fast as I can. I try to walk but I can't. I sit on the grass, it's kind of damp, a little bit snowy. I let my tears out. I shrug a little from the cold wrapping my naked neck&arm. I cover my face, hoping that it'll stop my tears.

A hand covers my neck with a scarf. I didn't cared to look at the person. I could smell Chris' cologne. He sits next to me on the ground. His face red too. He turns me to face his side.

"I got your back no matter what. If you want to go, then go. I'm with you, not against you. " He squeezes my hand. I smile under my tears, he wipes them with his thumb.

"Katherine?"

"Christopher?" I say, he smiles.

"I love you." I stare at him in shock, I did feel the same things but this was the first time I'm hearing this from him, out loud.

"Show me." I say teasingly, he smiles, pulls me closer to him and brings me in for a kiss. I shiver, when I feel his warm soft lips against my cold skin.

Rain is pouring gently over us but we don't mind, we're too lost in each other.  Everything disappears, it's just the two of us.

I look around, everything I see is beautiful as long as I'm with you.

And I can't deny it
and I wont try it.

I got that tunnel vision for you.

I only see you.

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