Skittles and tea

Chapter Twelve

                                                               Phil's POV

We had to be there for Chris today. This morning when I arrived Peej seemed a little better, but after lunch he'd weakened again and now he was a lot worse. He was resting while the TV was on, it was Adventure Time, he absolutely loved Adventure Time, we all did. Chris had fallen asleep in the chair next to PJ again, he was asleep by his side when I arrived in the morning, clenching PJ's hand so tightly, he had fallen asleep the exact same way. A nice nurse had given us two more chairs, this nurse kept blushing every time I smiled at her. Strange, she must be interested, but I think I'm already madly in love with Sean, this American girl who had just started working at radio 1. She was absolutely beautiful, I couldn't see myself with anyone but her. But right now it was all about PJ, we were all there with him, his eyes were bloodshot and baggy, you could see his cheekbones so clearly, he was so skinny. He seemed skinnier than he did that morning, and that was what really scared me. I think his eyes were red from crying, we had all been crying so much. He hadn't much time left and we could all see that so clearly now, we just didn't want to believe it. 

 Dan came back in the room at about 3pm, we were all with PJ now. He shook Chris lightly to wake him. "Chr... Chris" he croaked. Chris woke up, stretched and yawned.

"Yes, PJ?" He asked, yawning.

"Could.... You please...Go..... Get me some..... T..... Tea...... And....... Skittles"

Chris gulped and looked as though he was going to cry.

"I tell you what, I'll go and get us all some skittles and tea" he smiled and got up to leave. I could tell he was crying.

"I'll go too. You  can't possibly carry four cups of tea and four bags of skittles all by yourself" Dan stood up and left with Chris, his arm around him. Leaving me alone with PJ, who I could barely stand to look at, he just looked so sick and I hated it. It was selfish, but I kinda hated him for it too, for hurting us all like this. But I couldn't tell him that, I felt so bad for even thinking it.

"Phil?" PJ struggled to even say my name.

"What's up Peej?" I couldn't help but let PJ hear the heartbreak in my voice.

"I.... Just need to talk"

"What is it?"

"I know that today.... Is my day"

"Oh, Peej, please don't" I couldn't help myself now, he was telling me that today was his day to die, I couldn't stop my eyes from filling with water.

"I... have to. I just.... Want to.... Prepare you for it"

"Peej, you can't possibly prepare me for something like that. You don't know exactly when it's going to happen, but I can promise you that none of us will leave tonight, we'll be here with you, all afternoon and all night"

"Ya.... You promise?" 

"I super duper promise" I put my hand on PJ's bed, he smiled and put his hand on top of mine, slapped it twice and then we went "SUPER DUPER FRIENDS!" Not too loudly, we normally shouted it, but PJ was too weak to shout, and besides, we were in a hospital. Super Duper Promises were something that we had made up when we first met, it was a stupid cheesy thing, but we still did it because it was just funny.

"L.... Look Phil, I wanted to... Thank you.... For being such a ...... Good friend.... To me, over the years"

"Same back to you, Peej" I smiled, tapping PJ's hand lightly.

"No, I.... Mean it, Phil. If it weren't.... For you, I probably.... Wouldn't have made.... A YouTube account, and you've just..... Been such a good friend to me" PJ started welling up at that last sentence, I could feel my eyes getting sore from not letting the tears fall.

"Thank you..... For making me happy.... And for always being there" he burst into tears at that point, and I just had to let tears flow like waterfalls down my burning cheeks.

"It's okay, Peej, you've been such a great friend to me for years now, and I'm glad we all met. Me, you, Dan and Chris. Chris is so lovely, and I truly do mean that"

"You take care of him for me" PJ started shaking.

"I will, I..... Super duper promise" the tears flooded my face, making PJ's do the same, and at that moment Chris and Dan came back with our skittles and tea.

Author's note: OMG I actually cried so much when writing this chapter :( I'm sorry I haven't been posting more of this lately, it's because of how sad it's making me and I don't even wanna write it anymore! I wanted to give the girl that Phil met at radio 1 in the last chapter a name, and since I couldn't put myself (wink wink) I put my friend Sean in here instead, who btw total side note is going to be coming here to stay for a bit in July and I can't wait :D Anyway, brace yourselves for the next couple of chapters, they are going to be very sad indeed. Posting tomorrow! I'm sorry <3