Secrets☆☆ Kian Lawley

29~ last peaceful nights sleep

Kian's pov.

The whole day had consisted of all of us just watching movies and going on social media. It was 5 and Zoey was asleep cuddled up against my chest. I stared at her beauty. Of course I loved her outside but I also love the little things she doesn't notice.

I loved how she would always scrunch her nose up whenever she was concentrating, how she would always bite her lip to keep herself from laughing. How she can rant about something simple like a book for hours and hours. Every little thing she does I am in love with.

I couldn't imagine life without Zoey, she is my everything. I grab her small body carefully in my arms and carry her upstairs and lay her down on my bed. I crawl in next to her and I just admire her. I kiss her nose, forehead, both cheeks and then finally the lips.

She stirs and wakes up with a smile on her face. She blushed and kissed me back. We pulled apart and we just stared at each other in a nice silence. But something was wrong. In Zoeys eyes was a hint of sadness and guilt.

Last night I swear I saw it as well. Same with Ricky something is going on and I was curious as to finding out what. "Hey what's going on?" I ask trying not to push any buttons. Before I asked she was focused on me but now she is avoiding eye contact. Something is definitely going on.

"Look I know I've been a bit weird since last night but you will know soon. It's a suprise!" She says with a fake smile on her face. She wanted me to think it was nothing bad but I could tell that when I find out shit is about to go down,but I dropped it for now.

Zoey's pov.

I could tell Kian knew something was going on but I'm thankful he dropped the subject. I close me eyes but can't manage to get back to sleep. I kiss kian on the cheek and tell him that I'm going to go down to the shops to buy some ice cream.

Since it was night time he told me to be safe and he was asleep in an instant. I was getting ice cream but I just needed to be out of the house for a while. It will help me figure things out. I get in the car and drive to the small shop and buy my favourite ice cream, cookies and cream.

I sat in the car and started to eat it with a plastic spoon I bought. I needed some time along to think. I have today and tomorrow to break up with Kian but I need to pack up everything before I leave, I also need to make up an excuse for breaking up with him.

I know Stacy, my best friend would let me stay with her for as long as I need. I decided to text her to ask.

Zoey~Hey Stacy um I need to tell you something but you can't tell anyone and I need a big favor.

Stacy~ Yeah sure babe tell me what's up?

Zoey~ I'm breaking up with kian tomorrow or the next day and I need a place to stay. I'll explain why later.

Stacy~ Aww babe of course you can stay. You can stay as long as you need.

I replied with a thanks and we ended the conversation. I wasn't going to tell her the real reason why I'm breaking up with Kian I'll just tell her whatever I'm telling Kian. I know it's bad for me to lie but it's the only way. I'll just tell Kian that... that I'm not in love with him anymore. Maybe he will believe it.

I'm going to have to pack my stuff tomorrow at night then go take them to Stacy and break up with Kian. I feel the tears start to fall down my face. I hate you Jack! Why do you have to make me do this?? I try to calm down and remember that if I didn't do it Kian will be dead.

I wipe my face and start to make my short drive back to the 02L house. I pull up in the drive way and make my way inside the house. All the lights were still off but I still know my way. I quietly make my way to Kian's room and I'm now standing at the door staring at Kian.

I'm going to miss this, I'm going to miss cuddling him, kissing him, hugging him, being called his, I'm going to miss him so so much. But I have to do it for his own good. He will be safer without me in his life, even if it means me being alone and depressed.

I lay down next to Kian careful not to disturb his slumber. As soon as my head hit the pillow I realize how tired and exhausted I really am. Maybe it's from lack of sleep, stress or just crying to much... all of it was just so exhausting.

I close my eyes wanting to fall asleep next to Kian one last time and have some peace. I don't want to wake up and know that tomorrow will be my last day with him. I needed my energy for what was to come and although Kian didn't know he needed it to.