Kept Quiet / The Maze Runner / Minho

Chapter 10: Unconditional Love

Songs: Enchanted by Taylor Swift and Tell Me That You Love Me by Victoria Secret (Jk it's Justice)

Helen's POV

tap tap tap tap tap tap...

I couldn't stop tapping my fingers on the lone bench in the Glade. i couldn't get over Minho's words. Did he really mean that or was he just being his cocky sarcastic self. Either way, i made a fool of myself when I acted so angry at dinner. I wasn't mad at what Minho said specifically but because if he truly thinks that lowly of me then why do I feel so disappointed in myself. It must be because we'll never become more than just friends. Newt and Chuck think otherwise and they have been telling me he didn't mean it but Minho hasn't talked to me about it so what am I suppose to do?

"Helen, stop making so much noise!" I quickly start playing with my fingers instead and sheepishly look over at Gally - yes the jerk that might have a kind soul somewhere inside him - who's glaring at me while his right hand turns white with his strong grip of his ax.

We have a complicated relationship. I mean...yah maybe I've only started talking to him since this morning because of the fight i had last night with Minho, but I wasn't comfortable talking about my feelings with his best friends. If I ever told them the real reason why I was so mad, I would get teased or maybe they'd think it would be weird to love your own best friend after two months of knowing each other.

We have been over this already, girl! You love him and I know that if you talk with his friends, they'll give you the inside scoop! He should have felt some kind of connection because I swear everything about being stuck here floated away. Your in love in a place where either of you could die. Every moment counts so for once, I'm agreeing with the Devil. Love is worth the risk!

I let out a frustrated grunt before I got a face full of mud. I sit there with my lips closed and my eyes widened. What the shuck?

"Stop daydreaming and actually do something, Greenie! Shouldn't you be in the Maze or painting your shucking nails? Maybe the rumors were right."

I wipe off the wet mud from my face in disgust. This would've been funny if I wasn't in such a sour mood. 'Excuse me? What rumors have you heard because if it's about me being useless...I'm going to kick the guy's ass into next year.'

I glare at a blonde-haired boy no older than 16 when he says these next words. "As you can see, sweetheart, you've been here for months and no other girls have arrived. We all think your a mistake even your "friends" think so too."

I scoff in disbelief.

"What, do you think I'm lying? If you haven't noticed but no one has talked to you today and I'm guessing its because the slintheads finally found out the truth. You're not a true Glader. You're an impostor and weak. You might be able to run fast but that's all you'll be able to do. You haven't even shone your strength in wrestling so, Greenie, why are you even a Runner? If I was -"

I was definitely hurt by his words and it must have shone on my face because Gally spoke up. "John! Shut your mouth before I beat the klunk out of you. If you have nothing else to say then just shove it up your ass where it belongs! Now get back to work you shank."

I gave Gally a small smile of gratitude since I couldn't speak up for myself as I stood up to leave. Gally grunted in reply before shooing me away. I knew I wasn't welcome near the builders so I just started my trek back to my bed. I was tired, emotionally, and I felt like total crap. I was hurt by I guess, John's, speech and I felt alone. I looked at the ground with tears in my eyes. It was true. I'm a mistake and no one likes me. Minho might have been joking about the bacon part but he has been so friendly to me...yah, friendly.

Oh, who am I kidding? I've been hoping for a bigger relationship than just friends with Minho, but that will never happen considering that the Glade sucks out any happiness about it. I feel a tug on my shoulder which makes me rapidly blink away my tears. I have to become strong, since its the only thing I've got going in this place.

"Um, can we talk?" Minho has an expressionless face which makes me grimace after almost missing what he says. He isn't happy to see me and yet, I still feel attracted to him. I quietly nod and follow him to the Deadheads. He must have gotten back from running early because it was just after lunch.

Oh God, he's probably going to say we can't be friends anymore. I'll be truly alone since Newt, Chuck, and Alby are going to have to pick which friends to hang out with and since I haven't known them for long, I'm going to be abandoned. Today sucks. I doubt it.

Minho reaches the cover of the trees and takes a glance back at me silently bathing in depression. He frowns at the change of my mood. I smile at him without looking conspicuous, but he doesn't seem like he notices.

He must want us to be alone because along the way he scouts out the area. He suddenly stops which makes me bump into him. "I'm sorry."

I raise my head and squint my eyes. 'What for?'

Minho sighs then explains, "Everyone knows that you feel like klunk today. We can all see it in your eyes so stop trying to act happy. Tell me what's wrong so I can fix it. I want to help."

My reaction was a simple roll of my eyes. I can't be weak in front of them. If they could see the sadness in my eyes, I wasn't doing a good enough job. 'I'm fine. I've just been tired lately.'

"Then I'll move my bed into your room since I've made it perfect for sleeping soundly in it."

I shake my head since I didn't want him to give his bed up when I've actually been sleeping fine. 'No, its fine. I'll just ask for comfortable pillows.'

Minho just nodded as I started to nervously bite my lip. There was an awkward silence as we either stared at the ground or at each other. He sucked in a deep breathe like he was going to say something but he hesitated for a second. He's acting different then he usually does which makes me think something upset him too.

Minho leaned against a tree to run his hand through his hair. "Did I do something because this all started last night at dinner? What did I do?"

What do I do? Should I tell him and embarrass myself, or just lie that I'm fine? I don't like lying but I don't know what the hell to do. God, I'm a slinthead when it comes to these things. Without thinking, I answer, "I got angry because I thought that all those times that we had fun together didn't matter. And yes, I realize you were just teasing but I-I-I panicked a-and..." I catch myself before I go any further with my feelings. I see that I am much closer to Minho than I was just a couple of seconds ago.

Minho pushed off the tree turning curious as to my feelings. "And what, Helen? you can trust me."

I gulped as I looked into Minho's endless eyes. 'I-I...Do you want me as more than just a friend?' I became nervous as I realized that what he said next could change everything.

Minho looked at me in bafflement. I think he was speechless because he just stared straight into my eyes with a look of serious concentration. I got uncomfortable at his never ending stare.

My heart was crushed as a big ass pile of rejection just gets thrown in my face.

Minho tensed as he squinted his eyes and replied, "No."

Author's Note

This chapter is a little short because this is where I need to figure out what events should happen first. I want to use all of my ideas since this might be the only fanfiction I create about TMR. I hope you all understand that I have other things that I have to complete before Wattpad so late updates will be common. (I missed last weeks because it was homecoming weekend. It was freaking crazy and I barely got enough sleep)

Hopefully when the story gets more interesting, I'll be in a constant writing mood. I hope you guys had a great Halloween! I dressed up as Cruella De vil :)

Q: What did you do for Halloween? What did you go as?

I'm off to explain to my mom why I got a C+ on one of my summatives ;(                                                    -Koolaid

*unedited*