Andy's PoV
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It's been a month. A month. And Alice is still in her coma. The doctor also notified everyone that Alice might die in the coma's porcess. And the more I look at Alice, the more I started to notice that Alice is getting skinny. And I mean skinny.
She has a tube in her throat to give her food. What I hate more than her being skinny, are the hundreds of tubes, wires, plugs, and machines that are hooked up to her. She even has to have a tube to her nose to breath. To freaking breath.
It's honestly scaring me shitless. I want Alice to be okay and to wake up already. Because she's getting discharged after two months, and I want her to at least be here for a few more days. I want her to wake up.
I haven't left the hosptial. Neither has Kellin or Max. Kellin really is a great brother, blood-related or not. Alice's parents have been going back and forth each day, going across the street to get everyone something to eat. Actaully, no one has really left. Everyone else sleeps in the waiting room. They only leave to go get a bag of clothes and an occasional shower. I have never left though. Kellin and Max have only gone home once on the doctor's orders to get some clothes, a proper bath, and some of Alice's clothes if she wakes up. If.
I can't bring myself to leave though. I'd take a shower in the bathroom, sleep in the bed they have in the room, and change in the clothes Kellin and Max bring me. I have never left this room. And it's where I am now.
Alice's chest slowly rises and falls, from the air that blows from the tube into her lungs. They patched up her back with stitches, patched up her lungs, and she has multiple bruises, scars, cuts, and stitches everywhere on her body. I always watch her on the bed. Sometimes Kellin or Max will join me. Alice's parents have joined me sometimes. But, I just can't bring myself to leave the room or Alice.
I'd watch her every day. The fans have come by the hospital's entrance once a reporter saw us drive here a month ago. Jamie has been the one to stay the quietest - besides me.
I'm the quietest out of everyone. Other bands have come by and tried to get me to talk, but I wouldn't listen to them. I'd just watch Alice, wondering when she'd wake up. Jamie is the same way. And so is Journee, Max, and Kellin.
They found a necklace around Alice's neck. It was on her during the crash. It was the only thing that wasn't broken. What happened to Alice . . . She had broken almost every bone in her body. The hunter out in the woods who caused the crash? He's being sent to jail because he has been in multiple car crash's and having been on probation for too long. He was a twenty four year old man who had been sent to court in the past month. He's now paying ten years in jail, fifteen if Alice dies. And he's paying for all charges, but even that's not enough money for over the doctor's room.
I have been on the news multiple times. Alice is the talk of the country, since no one can figure out her case until she wakes up. Her cheeks are hollow. Her stomach is flat and is showing her ribs. Her legs are the only thing that's plump, other than her arms. Her hair has grown very long. It's gone below her waist now. It used to be just below her chest "area".
I just can't understand why the razors were there. But, everyone's had there guess, and there all the same. Kellin said she was running to my bus, but I never saw her get on. I think she saw Juliet . . . On me. I think I just broke her, except as an accident. I just can't believe something like this could happen on such a fast day. Everything was gooing great. She was drawing me willingly, we went on a date, we almost kissed, she was about to see her parents. That's when everything went wrong. The letter, the loss, the accidental kiss, the razors, then the crash, Now, she has the coma.
I don't know when she's going to wake up, I just know that she will. There is no "if" with me. There is no "how" or "when". I just know she's going to wake up sometime, somehow, soon.
Matt Good, my great friend was the only one to speak with me when I'd actually listen. He's the only one I've talked to in a whole month. I haven't said one word, unless it was to Matt. No one else.
I just need Alice to wake up, or I won't be able to live. I figured out how much I love her. I figured out she is the one I want to be with for the rest of my life. I figured out, she has to wake up, or I will never leave the emptiness that cluds my heart. I will never be able to be happy again. I just know she's all I need to go on in life. Sure, I have my fans that would keep me singing, to smile once in a while for being their inspiration, but Alice will always be the one to make my heart glow with warmth. Comfort. Love. Actual love.
"Whatchya thinking about buddy?" Matt asked, sitting on the other side of the bed, making it dip in the process.
"Thinking about Alice, as usual," I answered back, no sometime, somehow, soon.emotion lacing my voice but slow, low, and whispered soft words.
Matt breathed in a heavy amount of air.
"You love her so much. Don't you?" I let a tear slip from the corner of my eye. I nodded and let a sob escape my mouth. I brought my knees up to my chest, and let tears freely fall from my eyes to the blue jeans kellin had given me. I was wearing a grey shirt, with blueish-black jeans. I had worn something that matched the mood. Something that matched my heart at th moment.
"I need her to stay alive Matt. I need her here. I need her to make the world smile again." Everything was cracked and choked in my voice. I was completely broken, completely cracked down the middle, and completely choked up. Everything seemed to be broken for me at the moment.
"She's a fighter Andy. She's a good girl. She'll live man." And with those words and a pat on the back, he left the room, and I looked up at Alice with my weary, wet, and blood-shot eyes.
Her body looked so broken. I remember being here when they took off the casts for her ribs, legs, arms, and head. Almost everything was broken. Now, she just needs to wake up, a few pain killers here and there, and to let those beutiful dark eyes flutter open with life. I need to see her toned skin not so pale. Her skin always looked pale, but not too pale, but not tanned eaither. She looked perfect in every way.
And for everything that happened this month, Jamie, Journee, Kellin, Max, Alice;s parents, and I, would all form a circle on the bed and pray. I'd say sorry so many times to God for never doing it. But, I'd always ask for the one thing I never asked for: Alice's life.
I stared at her slow breathing body, and for once in my life, all i wanted was for her to wake up. And the next thing I know, my wish came true. I saw her eyes open with life.
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Starting Over (An Andy Biersack Love Story ){sequal To Secrets}
أدب الهواة~*~DO NOT read this if you have NOT read Secrets!~*~ Alice was in an accident. A few things happened, and let's just say she's going to have to start her life over again. ^I hope you guys enjoy this!^