Him
All I wanted, a little peek
You notice me, I felt I was all you could see
His smile, as captivating as angel wings
His eyes, the doors to the heart I wanted
His personality, sweet like candy
I was always left wanting more.
A word, a phrase, my heart, ablaze
Fire of an ancient heat
His lips, color of a divine treat
I waited, looking for a chance to approach
When I did, I wasn't afloat
Drowning in the emptiness in my soul
you were the one to behold
Love at first sight, a bit naive
but what can I say?
That is me
Drunk on the smalltalk we spoke
I felt like it was all just a joke
You being too busy with my friends
I was the lost doll again and again
An outcast of outcasts, me all alone
You were the new play toy, fit and toned
All of them winding you up, gup, gup, gup
All that time wasted to impress
In the end, just a mess
There was no kiss
There was no spark
All I was, left in the dark
Hours and hours of following you around the crowd
But in time, I didn't make a sound
I gave up, I braced up
A glass coating around my fragile heart
Once being shattered, now bulletproof
Feeling of regret next to come
My emotions just stupid and dumb
Should I have changed?
Should we have kissed?
Us dancing under flashing lights was complete bliss
Why in the hell do I feel so bad?
I'm as pure as diamond but never to be had
Dreams of lust will come and go
My attraction to you may never slow
One day I'll find love, maybe now, next week?
Anywho it won't matter because my life neither at times was sadder
A small goal, to make you mine
Push down excitement
Push down nervousness
If he does see you
pretend you're not there
my life just separated into hiding here or there
Just a flash
Just a smile
Just a crystal heart
Just maybe
One question
Is a young love purely temporary?
The joy of watching it bloom
Or the dread too soon consume
Did I ever have a chance?
All I am is a vanishing act.
All I want, a guy to steal my heart
so in time, we can never be apart
YOU ARE READING
My Confessional
Non-FictionWriting a memoir at only fifteen years old has taught me a lot. Giving me the time to reflect on the lessons I learned the hard way and the mistakes I've made thus far. I learned, if there is at least two sides to every story, there is at least two...
