The Bad Boy and I

Chapter 29

"I had a really great time tonight." I smiled at Jonathan.

We're standing at the front steps of my house, my back facing my front door. For our date, he had taken me to dinner, and then to the movies. I found that I had really enjoyed myself.

"So did I." He smiled, his green eyes bright.

He then leaned in and kissed me softly, and I kissed him back. We pulled away after a few seconds, and we smiled.

"Goodnight." I said.

"Goodnight." Jonathan said.

He walked away, and I walked into my house. I closed the door behind me, and leaned against the door and smiled to myself. I had a good time tonight, I had even managed not to think about Will for awhile. I was about to walk up to my room, when I heard my phone ringing. I fished it out of my purse, to see that Cecily was calling me. I answered it.

"Hey Cecy." I said casually.

"Tessa." She said, panicked.

I tensed. "What is it? What's wrong?"

"It's Will." Her voice cracked. "He's been in a car accident. He's in the hospital, and the doctors don't know if he's going to make it."

I felt my phone slip out of my grasp, and crash to the floor. I didn't bother to pick it up. I only stood there, frozen. I felt every limb in my body turn numb, and I felt my heart shatter. Without even thinking, I grabbed my car keys and ran out the door.

* * *

I drove like a maniac, and stormed into the hospital, and up to the front desk.

"William Herondale." I sputtered.

"Room 213." The receptionist said.

I practically ran all the way to Will's room. When I finally reached it, I saw that evening was already there. I saw Clary standing with Isabelle, her red hair a mess. There were tears in her eyes, and she was holding Isabelle's hand. Isabelle was looking at Will's room door worriedly, and there were tears running down her cheeks. Alec and Jace were holding back tears and were speaking to Will's parents, who were looking lost, Linette barely keeping it together. Finally, Ella and Cecily were sitting in chairs. Ella was holding Cecily, as she shook with sobs. Ella was whispering comforts to her sister, though she herself was crying. I felt a tear run down my cheek.

Cecily then saw me, and pulled away from Ella, and walked up and embraced me. I hugged her back tightly, and she cried into my shoulder.

"He'll be okay, Cecy." I whispered.

I couldn't even imagine how this was for her. Her twin was teetering between life and death. This was hard for all of us, but for Cecily... She pulled away from me. Her bright blue eyes were swollen, and her black was messy.

"I hope so." Was all she said.

We walked over to Clary and Isabelle, and they both hugged me. I greeted Alec and Jace, who both smiled at me sadly. I spoke to Will's parents briefly, though they did not say much. Finally, I reached Ella. She smiled at me sadly.

"Hey." She said.

I only reached out and hugged her, and she hugged me back. We pulled away, and I took a seat beside her.

"I don't know what we'll do if we lose him." Ella said, a tear running down her cheek. "Cecily will never be okay."

"We won't lose him." I said, and squeezed her hand.

Linette and Edmund came over to talk to Ella, and went to go stand beside Clary. I felt that if Will died, he would take piece of me with him. We were too intertwined with each other that if something ever happened to him, I would never be the same. I felt more tears start to pour down my cheeks.

"Tessa, he's going to be okay." Clary whispered.

"What if he's not, Clary? I'll never be able to live without him. I love him." I said, and her green eyes filled with sympathy. 

"You won't have to." She said firmly. "Because Will is going to be fine."

"She's right." Isabelle walked over and took my hand. "He's going to be okay."

We all sat outside Will's room, for another half an hour. Doctors and nurses flew in and out of his room, making me even more scared. None of us were allowed in, not even his parents. I sat with Clary and Cecily, holding Cecily's hand while she cried. What would I do if he died? I couldn't go back to living my life. It wouldn't be the same. I suddenly yearned to see Will smirk at me, or head his voice call out the number of times I had rolled my eyes.

I was dying to was his bright blue eyes, and to feel his hair under my fingertips. I wanted to hear him laugh, and smile. I wanted to kiss him, and watch movies with him. Just one last time. I felt myself cry a bit harder, and realize that maybe I would never get to do or see any of that again. No. You can't think like that, Tessa, I thought to myself.

He'll be fine, I told myself. He's Will Herondale, he gets through everything. I kept repeating that to myself, even when the Doctor walked out of Will's room and stood before all us. We all held our breath. This was it. This is where we found out if Will had made it.

"I am sorry." The Doctor said. "There was nothing we could do."

From beside me, Cecily sobbed loudly and shook violently, as did Ella and Linette. Jace and Alec finally allowed themselves to cry as did Edmund, and Clary and Isabelle were stunned, tears sliding down their cheeks. I felt my entire world crash. I couldn't feel anything. I was paralyzed. I felt my heart being ripped out, and teared into a million pieces.

I felt myself get up, and walk to the washroom. I walked in front of mirror, and that's when I felt the raw agony of it all. I sobbed loudly, and hit the wall. Why Will?! Why not me?! I hit the wall again, and sank down to the floor. I would never see those blue eyes again. Never see his smirk again. Never hear his voice as he teased me, and never hear his laugh again.

Who was I without Will? I certainly wasn't the same Tessa anymore. I couldn't go back to History, with his empty seat beside me. I couldn't sit in the cafeteria with him not across me. I couldn't go to Cecily's house without Will casually stretched out on one of the sofas. I was nothing without him.

"Will." I said aloud, my voice wretched with my sobs.

"Please come back to me."