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How Much I Love You(Jalex)

This one is dedicated to my friend Georgia. She's one of the few people who doesn't think writing fanfiction is weird. But I don't know if she even likes All Time Low, so eh, FÜCK IT. This ones for you, G.

Pairing: Jack Barakat and Alex Gaskarth (Jalex)

Band: All Time Low

Alex POV

OH CRAPSICLES. Wait, what? Never mind. I woke up late because my stupid alarm clock didn't go off, now I'm going to be late. The only good thing about this is that I can avoid them. By them, I mean the idiots who push me around in hallways between classes, the idiots who throw food at me and make fun of me because I came out as gay last year. Biggest mistake I've ever made.

Well, not all of them are idiots. There's one, with black and white hair. He's about my height, and oh my tacos, he is attractive. But he's made it very clear to me that he's not into guys, you know by pushing me into a locker most days, or onto the floor then kicking me. I wonder if he knows what I do because of him. The fact that I have some huge crush on him doesn't help that. I get changed into black skinny jeans, a white tank top and my bright red Nikes. I pull tons of bracelets onto my left arm, almost up to my elbow, to hide what's underneath. I sighed, and stepped out the door.

(At school)

'Move it, faggot!' Rian jeered at me, shoving into my shoulder roughly. I broke into a run when I saw the striped hair coming down the corridor. 'Oi, Gaskarth! C'mere, I ain't gonna hurt you!' He yelled down the hall. 'Yeah right!' I shouted back. 'Just go away Jack, and leave me alone!' I added still running. It felt like the whole school was watching me, and they probably were. I had no friends to talk to, so I ran alone. I made it to my classroom without any new bruises or cuts. Well, there's a first time for everything. I dropped into my seat. 'Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh.'

'Alex, are you alright?' I heard the teachers concerned voice ring above me. My head shot up from its place on the desk. 'Oh, yeah. I'm fine, don't worry Miss.' I said, plastering a fake smile on my face. 'Ok, Alex. If you need anything, you know where to find me. Yes?' I nodded, and she walked away. I heard someone snicker behind me, and turned my head to see Rian and Jack laughing silently. Jack was staring at me really creepily, and it was beginning to freak me out. But it wasn't his usual glare. There was a hint of something else.... regret? No, that was just wishful thinking. The bell rang loudly, and I jumped up from my seat to run out the door. I felt something latch itself onto my arm. I hissed in pain as I felt the cuts sting. My head whipped around and I was met with Jack, staring at me with that strange expression on his face,

'I need to talk to you.' He whispered. Did he seriously think that I was going to go with him? After everything he's done, I wouldn't be surprised if this was a plan for me to get beat up. I knew Rian was laughing again, so I painfully yanked my arm out of his grasp and turned back towards the door. 'No. No goddamn way, Jack. I'm not going so you can just beat me up.' He didn't reply. Cautiously, I looked back. His gaze was fixated on my arm. To my horror, my bracelets had slid up my forearm, revealing my cuts to Jack. His eyes flickered back to mine, and this time he grabbed my other arm. 'You are coming to talk to me now.' He growled, his angry expression scaring me. He pulled me out of the classroom, out of the school, and into the tiny wooded area by the tennis courts.

He stopped and looked at me. I was extremely surprised to see tiny, jewel-like tears running down his cheeks. 'Are you cr-' 'Why?' He interrupted me. I just stared at him with a confused expression on my face. 'W-what?' I asked. Jack's face scrunched up in pain, and fresh tears rolled out over his lashes. 'Why do you do it?' He mumbled. This made me look at him straight in the eyes. 'What do you mean, 'why do I do it?' I said incredulously. 'Have you forgotten what you've done to me everyday for the past year?' I was beginning to well up too now, although I had no idea why. He shook his head. 'This is my fault?' He said. He sounded defeated, lost. I nodded. Where exactly was this going?

'YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO BELIEVE ANY OF THAT! THE ONLY REASON I KEPT AT IT WAS BECAUSE I THOUGH YOU WERE STRONG! I WOULD HAVE STOPPED A LONG TIME AGO IF I KNEW IT WAS AFFECTING YOU LIKE THIS, BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? I HATE DOING IT!!' Jack's voice rose to a shout. He dropped to his knees, still holding my arm. 'I'm so, so sorry, Alex.' My breath hitched. That was the first time he'd called me Alex in a long time, it was usually just 'fag', or Gaskarth if he was feeling nice. I was still angry with him, but I was beginning to forgive him. Somehow. Screw his good looks for being so persuasive.

I caught him mutter something under his breath. 'You wish I knew what?' I inquired. Jack stiffened. He raised his head and whispered,

'How much I love you.'