Starstruck ☆ S.P [EDITING]

It's Hard To Forgive You

Lily dropped you off in front of Sarah's home first thing the next morning. You slowly walked to the entrance of the actresses' home. Trying to find the words to say. Even after being up all night thinking things through you still haven't mustered up an explanation.

"Well, better come up with something quick." You whisper to yourself before knocking on the door. After a few minutes the door opened and there was Sarah: she was is in the same clothes from the night before. Her long blond hair tangled and matted, and she looked as if she hasn't slept all night.

"Oh God i-its yo-you." She hiccupped before slamming the door.

"Sarah.. Please, please let me in. We re-"  The door opened once more and a large suit case was thrown into your arms.

"Get your sh-shit out of m-my house!"

"Sarah, darlin', please let me in." The older woman finally opened the door to you and allowed you access inside. You entered quickly before she could change her mind. "I'm so sorry Sarah. Please j-"

"Save the shit! I fucking saw yo-you with L-Lily." The actress grabbed a half empty bottle of Vodka off the wooden coffee table before stumbling to the kitchen. You followed right behind her.

"Sar. . " You grab her shoulder, "You are drunk. Please just let me spea-" You stopped as tears escaped from the woman's eyes in front of you.

"I-I lo-loved you, y/n. W-With all I had and you just threw me away. Like I w-was some f-f-fucking piece of trash. God, I am. I'm worthless. I'm nothing more than an old drunke-" You pull her closer to you and wrap your arms around her. She tensed up at first before fulling relaxing into your hold.

"Sarah, love, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love you with all of my heart, soul, and mind. I would do anything and everything just to show you that. Words can not describe how much I hate myself for last night. I was drunk. So so drunk. I regretted it admittedly Sar. I love you and only you. I know it will be hard for you to forgive me. . If not impossible but I want to show you that you are the only one for me. Please, Please let me do that." The blonde continued to cry in your embrace. You grabbed the bottle from her hand and sat it down, before wrapping your arms tighter around her petite figure. The two of you stood in that position until the older woman pulled away, sniffling.

"I-I. . I'm going to n-need ti-time. A lot of time. F-for now.. I -I want you to-to sleep on the couch. I can't kick you out.. I couldn't live with myself." She sighed, "We'll see from there. It's just hard to forgive you, y/n. Re-Really hard." With that she left the room and walked down the hall to her bedroom, shutting the door behind her.

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Later that night you tossed and turned on the couch. Replaying her words in your head over and over again.

It's just hard to forgive you, y/n. Really hard.

Tears filled your eyes at the thought of Sarah never forgiving you. You wouldn't be able to bare it if she didn't. This was all one big mistake, and you wished for nothing more than to take it back.

You played a thousand scenarios in your head. Until the sun began to shine through the living room curtains and you realized you had been up all night, crying.

This is going to be hard for me too, Sarah.

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Starstruck is back guys!! Thanks for being patient with me and this story. Hope y'all like it. ~K