Never Alone. H.s.au ~on hold~

ch.1: maybe i am not good enough for them

lyla's p.o.v

I skipped throughout the familiar street, that I have been walking in it since when I was thirteen, the familiar people, familiar shops and familiar forest; who knew that that's the only part of town that haven't changed. Every other part of the state improved and rebuild itself, sometimes new fancy buildings, new shops with different accessories and new people moving in and out; except that part, it feels like the time stopped here at the nineties, the hope of this town getting changed, vanished away from few years ago. It was hopeless.

But the forest, is something else to see.

This forest was magically beautiful, it was my secret place to think and act my own self,it's full of life and peace that can let you breath it's fresh air and hear the beautiful voices of the birds singing on the branches. I almost a go into this forest every single day in the morning and I come out safely without a scratch .people started woundering about me, how do they see other people getting in there and never come back and then, I, go in ther every day and come out without a single scratch from a tree. some people say I am cursed and some say I am lucky, charming and there is something about me special, again, lies , lies and lies

What so special about a girl that doesn't have a family, confidence, personality or even money. Yeah, maybe sometimes I go for a walk or two and explore the beauty of the forest, but just come out safely. I've heard many people died in there, and to be honest that terrified me. A hidden monster is there to end lives, but why not mine?

I didn't have the great education that everyone have nowadays, I dropped out of school when I was thirteen and runway from the foster home that I've been lately, my life was tragic. An endlessly tragic story that keeps going on and on.

my parents died when i was three ,they were in a car crash or atleast that was I was told been. I don't have family to stay with, I don't know if I had a family or not, and even If I had, why would they leave me? Oh right, because I was unwanted from the others.

My life is miserable, and I know that. My hopes and dreams came crushing down, and it's hopeless to give it another try. Sometimes when I see people around me having there dreams come true, I smile and watch there joy, waiting for the moment for me to have that joy. I really hope I could change my life path I to a brighter one, and stop judging every corner of my life, to just start from zero but someday, someday I would be a hero. I sighted, maybe that's hopeless too, but that doesn't mean I shouldn't stop dreaming.

The midnight moon shined brightly in the dark blue sky as I kept glancing now and then behind me, the chilly weather kissed my skin as I walked further to the darker streets, to be honest; I don't know where am I. I maybe lost in thought and didn't know where I was going, I am lost, and that's not worse. Drunk men heading towards me.

My breath hitched as I heard the sick man's voice cutting the silence with his other friends,

"hello there beautifull "a man called ,i turned around to see if he calling someone behind me ,but no i am just the only girl in this street filled with a bunch of drunk men in there 30's, Great; just great.

"why don't you come with us "four men came towrds me and I froze I didn't know what to do. I wanted to run and hide but nothing moved, my body didn't respond like a frozen piece of ice ,it's like you stopped the time and now everything is hapenning slowly ,everything becoming blurry, I can't hear but a muffle sound, I wounded why my surrender become this way, but the only answer was; fear controlling my brain and system. but,after that, I felt something touched my arm and with that,everything came back to me, I could hear, breathe, see and feel everything perfectly, like a shock hit my frail body.

The four men were shaped on a circle around me, so I wouldn't escape there filthy mind. someone grabbed my hand and that's when reality hit me hard, I tried to fight but they were strong, four men against one tiny girl is unfair for god's sake, Adeline pushed through my veins as my fear creeped to my mind, I wasn't going to give up. Breath Lyla , just breath.

I kicked someone in their crotch as they screamed in pain. "okay fine but you still have to get it ."

two of them left , I figured out that they were bored of me, and I think that's the right time to escape but that's when I felt a punch in my stomach, I screamed and fell to the ground putting my hand over my stomach. I didn't do what they wanted and they don't like that, I thought they left too but I think they wanted to at least repay, they were drunk after all.

a kick after kick after kick .in my face in my stomach .i felt weak and i felt like there is nothing matters anymore ,memorise are still alive in my head and i am sure this one too will join them, painfull memorise is all I can get, I can't even remember the last time i smiled or laughed, it's like my heart is ripping apart and getting a stabbed by a knife. sometimes I feel like a cold stone is heavy on my chest were I can't breathe normally, just like right now.

after 15 minutes of painfull beating ,i finally stood trying to get away from them ,i ran as fastest as a i can but the terrifying thing is they were running after me ,but stopped immeditaly when they realized where i was going .The Deadly Forest ."good luck there ,beautiful"the man called and a sick laughs and coughs rang through the air.

how can people do this,make you unhappy and miserable, can't they just help you throught whatever you want, but life isn't working on that way unfortunatly this world have two sides bad and good and whether you choose but life choosed me,i didn't choose it and i am still accepting it but,i am stil trying to make a change.

I ran to it and i ran inside it going there deeper and deeper , i couldn't see anything .it was around 1:00 after midnight and the forest looked scary in night ...i knew it is beautiful in the morning but everyone and everything have their other side ,sometimes you feel like there is something beautiful that you can't resist it and other times it scares you as hell .

i didn't care i was scared from the men not from the forest ,because deep inside there in the forest it is still the beautifull place in my heart and i can just imagine it as i am in the morning .

i felt a liqued on my forhead ,i realized it was my blood .my dress had a stains of blood everywhere .it was white dress that was under my knee .and the dress was really really simple ..i am barefoot ..like i said i live in the streets and i don't have a job.

i didn't have energy to even stand .i stod in the middle of nowhere and suddenly i fell ,i felt dizzy not sleepy .i closed my eyes for a moment and opened it again looking at the stars above me .the beautiful moon that shining was above me .i smiled at the beautiful view but screamed and winced when i felt the bruises and and cuts hurt .

why people treat me like this ?why they treat me like i am just a problem in there life ?but i didn't do anything to them..i left them live and be happy i helped every single person .but maybe just maybe ..

maybe i am not good enough for them .

i needed to be loved ,i needed to feel free with my life being happy .

I don't know, life is hard, and people just don't accept it.

suddenly i heard craches from behind the trees .i heard step after step after step .my heart beats started going faster and faster and i felt like my heart is trying to escape from my chest .my breathing was heavy, my Heart and head were screaming from pain.

the steps got closer and closer and then stoped .i didn't want to get up .maybe if i just layed there .it will leave me alone .i closed my eyes and i felt the rush of sleepness into me and then i drift into a dreamless sleep .dreaming about what will happen tomorrow.

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That was semi-editing, but I'll try to edit it more, thanks for reading lovelies.

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