Never Alone. H.s.au ~on hold~

ch.2: They will never understand

lyla's p.o.v

My hands twisted as I moved my neck slowly; feeling sore as ever. A cold breath washed my face like there is someone breathing on my face,Rush of dizziness hit me like a storm as I opened my eyes painfully, everything was hurting me. And as a normal human being; I didn't like it. As the sun burned my eyes, I blinked a few times to get used to the bright light. I managed to sit up, and look around me, moving my head from left to right taking my surrendering. Pain hit me like a bus, actually it felt like I got hit by a bus or ran to a tree. Events of yesterday were buried in the back of my mind. Painful memories.

I knew I was frail now, I somehow didn't want to get up but I was starving so I managed to anyway. I looked around me, admiring the place, how the trees danced together to the howl of the win, how the yellow shiny sun stood in the middle of the sky, how the birds sang their songs with full of joy and happiness.

until I heared a sudden growl coming from behind the trees, I whimpered getting up suddenly, ready to run if I got the chance ,where did that come from ? i thought .

I didn't knew where I was ,I usually go don't go far away from the street ,but this time I just ran deeper for me to get lost, I was afraid if there was a wild animals. I ran to who knows, but not minding anyway, I don't want to get eaten by a wild animal, or any other creature for the matter.

After a few breaks and distances, I found a big tree held proudly it's blood red apples, hanging on its branches. Well I guess time to eat and get some energy. With hard tries, I finally climbed the big tree and grabbed two apples, one for now and one for later.

I took a bite; tasting the sugary water and the bittersweet feeling, such a gift. Apples were my favorite fruit to be honest, whenever there is an apple tree in the forest, which was quite a lot here, I always loved its taste.

I took a moment of silence, listening to my thoughts as they poured into my mind, all of the memories of yesterday made my bruises ache more, my whole body is blue and purple, green and brown. Red. Full of my blood. I shook the memory that made me want to cry again, but I held my years and started to think about my tragic life.

It's strange how people don't understand you well, some were curious but some others weren't, my life was miserable and I knew it. Yeah I know I mentioned it a lot but still, it's the truth anyway. We can't hide. I can't hide.

People didn't understand me well, never tried to. They thought that I was just another retread flowing in the streets, which is don't blame them because if I saw one, I'd be worried too. For myself; I mean.

I did try to make a little talks with them, saying good morning to the flower lady but somehow she didn't manage to say it back, and the kids who play with their friends, I tried to play with them and they were enjoying my company honestly, but their parents always warned them from me. They didn't understand the real me, my real personality, sometimes I wanted people to read my mind and may for once they could understand how I feel, maybe they could understand me for me, not the poor girl living on the streets.

But I had to move on from them, and start thinking about me.

I skipped through the trees, not focusing on my road, not minding if I died now or tonight. It wouldn't bother me anyway. But I knew I was walking in circles. But I managed to get a rose and throw its petals like a trail so I wouldn't come back to the same direction.

Until I faced a mansion, so big yet so far. Like a treasure buried deep inside the forest, the heart of the forest.

it was so open and wide there was a lot of windows .it wasn't really old ,it seems like there is someone living in here ,i wanted to knock on the door to get help but i was afraid if this person will hurt me. I was scared if that person who is living here could be dangerous, maybe a murder?

I shook my head, this isn't a fairy tail where I enter the castle and find my Prince Charming, who could save me from myself and protect me from every one, that's reality, unfortunately; realty ruined my life. I kept staring at the big White House with a driveway and a car was parked there, the gates were wide open but not abounded for sure. I glanced from window to window till I noticed a figure looking out from the window, looking at me.

I was sure he was a man, from his rough figure. And I was sure he was staring me, I was intruder. A stranger examining the house is something to worry about, and I am that stranger.

I stood frozen, watching as the man disappear and then he came out from the front door, in seconds he was in front of me, I don't know if it's me or him.

He looked around my age, maybe even one or two year older, his messy hair pushed in a quiff and his forest green eyes squinted as he stood too close to me, to be honest; he looked a lot attractive to be a serial killer or a dangerous man.

I didn't ran or scream, I don't know if I thought it was useless, being dead or alive is the same feeling now so it didn't bother me. Or maybe the shock in my system froze me.

"Hi, uhmmm, may I help you?" he spoke in deep raspy voice, I opened my mouth to apologies or maybe just make any sound or ask for help, maybe a guideline for me to go back to the pavement. But instead, a squeaky voice came out and nothing else. This is embarrassing.

But fear ripped through my system more than the shock, he didn't look dangerous, harmless but still his eyes told a mystery, not trusting.

"are you okay ?"he asked stepping closer to me, too close for my liking, after the accident, yesterday. Everybody is a danger now, especially men. Still no noise, and what worried me the most, he had a smirk on his flawless face, and that's pretty terrifying.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and heard my voice to the first time, ringing through my ears. " I am sorry,"I whispered, not seeming sure, if I was apologizing for intruding or just for the luck of fear through me, and he wasn't sure too, his smirk fell and his eyebrows pulled together, he twitched his hands and twisted them as I stood in a frozen state.

"Why?" He stepped closer, that our hands touched, and his cold breath washed over my breath,

I really wanted to move any part of my body to move, to twitch. I struggled for five minutes, fighting off with my body to take a step back; and after a painfully ten minutes, I moved my legs, a step after step back. My legs moving faster and faster, he tried to move a step with confusion over his face, but I ran away too quickly and I glad I did.

"Hey, wait!" I could hear his shouting and callings but I didn't care, he would never understand my state, understand my life, understand me. I am too tired for anything now, they will never understand.

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