Never Alone. H.s.au ~on hold~

ch.5 Dead Hearts

i woke up feeling the warmth of the mattress beneath me, i clenched the sheets in my hand and opened my eyes slowly adjusting the light that's coming fom the window, at first i was confused but then i knew why i am here, i am still trying to get used to this, this new life, this new person, this new world. for some raeson i wanted to smile, but i knew i wasn't the only one in this room,i wasn't alone and i could sense it there is someone watching me, i turned my head to the other side, i was sleeping on my tummy, here he is , smiling.he wasn't that far but he was kneeling infront of me on the floor, his head was layed on his arms which was on the mattress. "goodmorning "he whispered smiling title his head a little bit.

"goodmorning "i whisperd back smiling but it didn't came normal ,my voice was raspy and sore, i am still sick.i frowned, i felt something playing in my stomach and planing on getting out, harry's smile dissappeared when he found me frowning and his face was written on it confusion. my eys widned and i jumped of the bed knowing i can't get to the bathroom that fast "take me to the bathroom " i said panicking in a half secound i was on my kneed onfront of the toilet spilling my guts out, harry was holding my hair with a hand and the other hand rubbing on my back, trying to at least calming me down.after i finished i was so weak, there wasn't anything left in my stomach, i don't know if i can throw up anymore. i tried to get up but failed, i can't feel my body, i become numb harry held me by my waist and my arm were around his shoulder, he dragged me to the sink and washed my mouth, then he held me bridal style ,i closed my eyes fast knowing that if i opened them and harry... flew. i will get dizzy.in seconds ,i was on the bed .

i opened my eyes and i saw panicked harry. "w-what can i get to you? " he asked panicking for someone who is not human and didn't live with a human ,i don't blame him from panicking. "i am alright, it's nothing, thank you. "i said weakly ,i tried to lie because i wasn't alright, and it was nothing. he didn't believe me, "please tell me " he said like begging me to make hin do anything. i thought about it for a minute. "can you make a chicken soup? "i asked blindly, he smiled "i have a cook book "he said, i smailed. "well can you make me a chicken soup ?" i asked politly, trying to not to sound rude. he chuckled and nodded. "be there in a sec "he said and dissappeared. "of course you are. "i mumbled, i heard a loud laugh coming from downstairs, now i am sure he heard what i just said.

after 5 minutes, harry was there holding a bowl of soup, a spoon and a napiken. i mumbled a thank you and reseved a 'welcome' from him. i felt home, i felt safe, i felt loved and taken care of, i felt alive .i took a sip and harry watched my every human move as possible. yummy, it was so good "wow, it is really good " i said surprized, he chuckled. "how can you cook this awsome like that? "i asked seriously woundering. "i learn fast "he said simply. i looked at him and shake my head "lier " i said not believing him. he chuckled and shaking his head .i got hlaf way to the biwl but i couldn-t countinue. i sat on the bed pulling my feet from under the covers. "what are you doing? " he looked at me ,he stood up not so quickly but enogh for the human's eye. i looked at him "putting the plate in the kitchen "saying as matter of fact. his eyebrows knotted togther,he shook his head and again he dissapeard..... with my plate. i sighted and climbed back to bed, i felt better but not perfect. not one hundred percent sure that i am okay. he came back and he layed on the bed next to me. i raised my head a little so he could put gis arms under my head and i put my head on his chest.

"this is diffrent " he bearly whispered,but i heard. "yeah " i agreed. for someone who is diffrent from anything far thatn you know. and for someone who is.. eat diffrent food and live a diffrent life ,it is intersting to meet someone new, and espicially not from your kind. it felt diffrent, differently good.

for some reason i wanted to cry, i wanted to scream, i wanted to shout. i have never felt this feeling before.it's like a mixed feels ,all together . it's like i am feeling happy and sad in the same time ,like confused and in the same time everything is clear ,like when the sun goes down when it is still in the morning ,like i am heading to darkness but everything i see is light and pure and beautiful.