Never Alone. H.s.au ~on hold~

ch.4: i am not going to let you go...

lyla's p.o.v.

fear ,darkness,pain ,torture ,endless nightmares and lifeless ...

i opened my eyes afraid of what i will see but there was not anything is there scary ,it is the same room .with the same person in front of me .Harry .he was in the corner of the room standing there his arms crossed to his chest and his eyes are watching me .i sat up there .i felt scared and afraid of what will happen but in the same time feeling protected .my mind was filling with questions.what does he want from me ?is he going to hurt me ?is he going to protect me ?

"i am not going to let you go "he said in hus raspy voice hard at the same time ,and i could hear the guilt loud enough for me to hear .i was shocked he just said he is not going to let me go ." why ?" i can't tell you how afraid i was ,not from him but from myself ,i was so scared i could lose myself and i could lose who am i ,i didn't want ro feel weak but its seems like there is no another choice but to be afraid ,my voice croaked and i didn't like the feeling of weakness i just wanted to sound brave to him but i failed ,he just stood there his eyes were dark and full of guilt once he saw a tear rolling on my cheek .

"why can't you let me go ?"

"why do you want to leave?"

i was a little shocked of his question ,my mouth opened but no words just heavy breaths .i stared down to the floor .i won't fight ,he just won't let me go and besides,i have no where to go so if i countinued my journey in the forest he will easily find me, i can't say i am stuck here ."how long will i stay here ?"i whispered still staring at the floor ,i closed my eyes ."long enough ,maybe forever " he answered .i nodded just leting it all sink in .i lay down on the mattress again closing my eyes .maybe this is my new life ,if i didn't get near to that house i may be now on the street being beaten or kidnapped .maybe he could save me from nightmares ,maybe he could protect me from darkness ,or maybe , he will take advantage of me ,maybe he will hurt me ,maybe he will kill me , maybe he will betray me .Maybe.

i opened my eyes to find him in the same far corner watching my every move ,studying it and trying to figure me out .i closed my eyes again .seeing nothing but a black screen .i opened my eyes again but this time i saw harry near me .he stood there next to the bed .my hands were both of my sides .i didn't undersatand what he wanted to do ,he just stood there confision writtin all over his face.

he looked to me in the eyes ,his face softened and his eyes were green again ,there normal colour ,his hands were both on his sides ,his hands were only a few inches .his fingers accidentally touched mine.i winced and whimpered at his cold touch .he backed away immediately "i am sorry " he apologized .my eyebrows knotted together .

i nodded and closed my eyes again ,i wanted to sleep so badly .i wanted to stay awake but i couldn't .i heard "goodnight" from harry before i fell into deep sleep .

i woke up but fighting with myself to not open my eyes ,i felt like it was all a dream and it was just my mind playing tricks on me , i thought i was going insane for once but when i opened my eyes ,everything happend ...was real .

i saw the same room ,the same person i think he didn't move because he was standing still in his place ,i also guess that he didn't saw me open my eyes ,his eyes were looking out of the window thinking deeply ,i cleared my throat but that wasn't enough ,i was so hungry but i was afraid to ask ,i didn't eat anything .

"harry ?"i whispered ,his head snapped at me he smiled a little but then the smiled fadded slowly he hummed in response "i am kinda ...hungry "i said looking to the floor ,i was embarssed a little ,i looked back at him ,i didn't found him .i kinda panicked .after 10 minutes ,i got bored ,i sat up and my stomach growled ,damn it .