Suicidal - 5sos

Chapter 10

(A.N I am the worst writer in the world i am so sorry but im feeling creative rn and decided to write so yeah, I HAVENT UPDATED THIS IN AGES BUT A TON OF STUFF WAs HAPPENING IN MY LIFe. Im sorry I left you on a cliff hanger but now you can find out what happens yayayay :P )

Sophie's POV:

I can't stay here. He will find me.

He will find me

Everything that has ever happened to me washes over my whole body like a tsunami of a wave I can't escape and I'm drowning I'm drowning I'm drowning. I can't just leave Luke but I have to. I need to. If the police and my prison guard 'Dad' ever find out that these 4 guys were keeping me here they would arrest them. I have no proof that my 'Dad' is abusive. I have to leave. For Luke.

I don't want to leave without saying anything, so I write a note for him. The only one who ever cared. My messy handwriting is almost unreadable but I think he'll manage to read it. There is a window in here, and I can climb down without anyone noticing. I've done it several times before, to sneak out without the devil 'dad' finding out. I desperately open the window and begin to climb out before I hear Luke pounding on the door screaming my name.

I'm so sorry Luke. But, I love you.

Luke's POV:

"Hey Ash you have the key to the bathroom right?" I half shout half cry down stairs.

"YEAH!" he shouts back and I see him clamber up the stairs and toss me a key. 

Desperatly, I jam the key into the lock but keep missing in my pathetic attempts. I stab myself a few times but I ignore the fact I've drawn blood from a fucking key because Sophie is not responding. I'm screaming her name over and over while making my pathetic attempt at opening the door before Ashton shoves me out of the way and grab the key from me.

"Fucking hell Luke!" he says as effortlessly gets it in, even though I can sense the urgency and panic in his voice and his face. I shove past him and run in, wanting to comfort Sophie as much as possible, to hug her until the pain goes away, to kiss her and tell her how much she means to me. To love her. To tell her I love her.

But she isn't there. 

I fall back a few steps into Ashton who falls down at the force but I can't help it. Salty tears flow down my cheeks like rivers trapped in my eyes and I'm falling and falling and falling. Ash stands up, confused, before looking at the bathroom. 

"Dude, the windows open. She must of jumped."

I quickly stumble up to the window and loom down, no dead body. At least she is fine. But where the fuck is she. WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE.

I'm screaming at the top of my lungs her beautiful name over and over and over and over and I feel like my voice is going to leave my body but I don't care anymore.

Michael and Calum run and start talking to Ashton in panicked voices 

"Where is she?"

"What the fuck is happening?"

"Oh my fucking god"

I try to ignore their conversation and realize there, on the sink counter, a note. A note signed with Sophie, For Luke. For Luke.

Ignoring the guys, I open in it frantically and see frantic words spilled on the page.

"For Luke,

I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. Without me you would never be in this situation. If the police and my 'dad' ever find out you were keeping me here they would arrest you. I can't do that to you Luke. Or the boys. Thank you for everything you have down, but you can't help me now. The universe knows I'm supposed to be alone, thats why it granted me with depression and anxiety. Bye Luke. I know our paths will cross one day.

One day.

Sophie"

And I collapse in my tears.