Last First Kiss {A One Direction Fanfic}

Chapter 21 - Friend's Forever

Chapter 21 - Friend's Forever

*Cas’ P.O.V.*

Why does this have to be so hard? Why do I have to like him? Why couldn’t I just pretend I didn’t, and then in a week everything would be back to the way they were and I wouldn’t have to see or speak to any of them ever again.

I haven’t been back at work all week. It’s been almost 4 days since me and Harry spoke. I told Dad that I couldn’t be around the boys anymore but I would still work on their songs, without them. Josh, Dan, Sandy and Jon come over every day and play the songs with me. They run through them and tell me how fast or slow I should sing, then together, we alter the songs where necessary. It’s easier with these guys. There is no affection or stupid and unnecessary feelings that go along with being around them. It’s just 5 people working on music together.

Unfortunately I do miss the boys a hell of a lot. It’s hard not to. I care so much about them. After a few days the lads seemed to catch on, Josh was the first.

“So, if you miss them, why don’t you just go back to the studio and work with them?” Josh inquires during one of our many breaks.

“Excuse me? I do NOT miss them and I certainly don’t want to go back to see them.” Josh hears the lie in my voice and raises his eyebrows at me. The other boys seem to catch on.

“So which one of them do you like? Zayn?” Sandy asked, amused by this whole situation.

“Nah it can’t be him, she declined his off for a date. Niall? You and him get along quite well.”Jon piped in. I’m beginning to think everyone thinks I like all of them.

“Nah it’s not him either. It can’t be Liam ‘cause you two are like brother/sister. Louis and you have too much of a weird relationship to be together, it’s like you two are evil twins or something…” Dan trails off, and all the boys look at each other as I look to the floor, knowing what is inevitably about to come.

“HARRY!!!” They all cry at once.

“So, why are you here and not telling him you like him?!” Josh blurts out. I look at them and sigh, knowing that I will have to tell them the whole story and how it is impossible for us to be together. They don’t say anything, just listen to my dire situation. They know that all the boys like me but were utterly shocked to learn that Harry likes me too. I guess it was the same reaction I had when I found that out too.

“So now you know why we can’t be together. It is impossible. And if I go back to working with them, our feelings will become too powerful and we will only end up hurting each other and the rest of the boys. I can never be with him, not now, not ever.” I finish my rant, tears slowly trickling down my face. Josh holds me in a strong hold whilst whipping away the tears. All the boys look at each other, trying to find the best solution to my problem. No one says anything for such a long time. No one knows what to say, because we all know that Harry and I can never be together.

Suddenly my phone goes off. I reach into my pocket breaking the hold that Josh has on me. I look at the caller I.D. and cry even harder as I throw my phone across the room. It smashes into the ground and my phone goes dead. I guess I just broke my phone…

“Cas, what the fuck?! Who was that?” Sandy yells, too mortified at my actions to speak in a nicer tone.

“I can’t talk to him. I don’t want to talk to him. All he is thinking about is himself and not anyone else, especially not me!” And with that I get up and run to my room, slamming the door behind me and jumping on my bed, crying into my pillow.

*Harry’s P.O.V.*

It’s been 4 fucking days and she still isn’t coming in! Why did I have to fuck this up so bad?! I had to tell her how I felt but I didn’t know it would turn like this! I didn’t know that she would run away, no come into work, not see us ever again. She said she would think about it. She never said she was going to walk away, leave everything we had. I know it is hard for her, but I need her in my life. I can’t do this anymore. I have to talk to her. I ruffle my hair in frustration and stand up and walk out of the recording room. Niall is recording at the moment so no one really cares what the rest of us do.