My heartless life (Killua fanfiction)

Epilogue

Killua's POV
You are something I can't reach. You wander everywhere but your vacations are at my heart.

Why is it so hard for me to grasp reality? Reality seems so surreal, my thoughts are the only place that's safe.

Maybe it's the bad signal but my words are not being delivered. Each and everyone of them being dispersed in space.

Your hands are cold. Leaving icy traces on my jaw. Sitting next to you for hours just looking at each other. But staring means so much more than words. My eyes, they speak what I feel so splendidly.

I ponder of how much I love you. Time flying away. Lying in this dark room I don't need light because you shine enough for the both of us.

I have thought of running away from my problems, but how can I run away from my favorite problem.

The sound of my tapping foot echoing in the room.

I can no longer think straight. You are always clouding my thoughts. I need to find you before it's too late.

I'm slowly being destroyed. I need to you to get me out of here and help me fight him. He won't stop making me suffer. Destroyer of my peace and my sleep. The one who can only sink me more and more into the depths of destruction. Save me from myself.

The only sound that's stopping me from falling is your voice.

Slowly fading.

No longer hearable.

I'm a goner.

Taking in reality I clutch my shirt. Tears streaming down my face.

"Why?" The only word my mouth could form.

Breathing in the cold air a reminder of death passed by.

Standing next to me, there stood the person I ache for. Her grave expression sending chills down my spine. I blinked the tears out of my eyes. Looking around the room there was nothing. Not a living soul. Not even mine. I might be alive but my soul is far away.

I love you. Forever in my heart you will be. Like a tree, I was the trunk and you were the leaves. While you slowly fell I stayed glued to the ground, missing a huge part of me. Not realizing that even if the leaves fall off the tree they will always be part of it. The tree will live after the leaves fall. But that's not my case. I'm the tree that was filled with delirium, the tree that got so depressed of losing its leaves that led himself to self-destruction.

Feeling the room become colder, a scent I recognized woke all my senses.

Calypso, the ghost of you is near me.

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A/N
HEY GUYS! Ok I wasn't planning on doing this but I ended up doing it. So hope you enjoy it! I loved writing this and I hope you all enjoyed it greatly. Anyways please vote and comment I appreciate it a lot. Check my other books if you want more of my writing. This isn't goodbye though, watch out for more books of mine. I'm planning some.

EXPLANATION OF THE EPILOGUE:
Killua was affected greatly by Calypso's death that he became delirious. Delirium is an acutely disturbed state of mind that occurs in fever, intoxication, and other disorders and is characterized by restlessness, illusions, and incoherence of thought and speech. When he "saw" Calypso he was just imagining things. After so many years of trying to deny reality he came to feel like it was all his fault.

Hope this helped you understand better!

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