My heartless life (Killua fanfiction)

2nd Epilogue

Hey guys! Wow it's been long since I've written on this book. To be honest I do miss it but everything comes to an end I guess. So here's a small thing I made (and a lil epilogue at the end). Something I might do later on is write a poem.I'm not that good at it but I do write a lot of poems daily. Maybe I'll post one later on. Hope you guys enjoy it. And again thanks for all the support and every vote and comment. Each and everyone is appreciated. Anyways Here goes nothing.

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Trying to forget but never being able to. How can I simply forget the only thing that made me feel. It's like forgetting your own name. No self recognition. 

Trying to forget your voice. The melody that forced a smile on my face. The delicate song that reminded me I was alive. No reassurance if my heart still beats. But only the heart that my body contains because the heart that held my love for you, died along with you.

Trying to forget the past. To live in the present and not think of what could have happened. If I thought about the what if's I would only feed the beast inside. Even so a present without you isn't worth living through.

Trying to forget your eyes. Oh boy! Those eyes that captivated me. Holding me tight in place even after they lost all color. Even after I held you lifeless. Damn Death. How could it take away the color of the sky, leaving the birds roaming in a void of darkness. Leaving the ocean transparent because the sky was the only one that could make the ocean's colors resonate. Without you I am colorless.

Trying to forget but not wanting to forget. All I want is to remember. All I want is for you to be next to me. So I can smell your warm scent. Touch your hair and hold you close.
Maybe if I remember enough I'll wake up from this nightmare and realize you are next to me.

I need you...

The years keep going by and nothing happens. When you died, time slowed down. Only so my suffering could be prolonged.

When I knew it was over, that there was no going back, tears begun to stream. What could I do? I could only cry and scream. Realization that I had to continue living was the hardest thing. Hard decisions are the ones that bring you happiness in the end. Something I had to do...

For you.

Just like I promised.

(A/N back at the exam when she asked him what would he do if she died. He said he would live for the both of them. Continue reading now.)

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(This is you could say a little second epilogue)

Stepping outside the warm air overpowered my cold interior. The sun who shone so bright greeting me hello. You are like the sun. The sun that contrasted the moon. Even if they were complete opposites both were perfect for each other. While the night was cold and conserved, the day was waiting for the sun to rise and warm the heart's of everyone. Especially mine.

Mounting the train I followed the sun's path. It's been a few years after my break down. After recollecting myself I promised I would live for the both of us. I wouldn't isolate myself from the world.

I still remember you everyday. You are my morning, my noon, my evening and my everything. Never will I forget you. I might forget some of our memories together but never will I forget you, my ray of sunshine.

Different types of people ride this train. At the back ride those who wish to escape their lives. Getting on the train thinking it would take them far away from their problems. In the middle sit the heartbroken. Those who's hearts have been tortured and burnt to ashes. They look out the window as they remember every memory they had with the person they once loved. At the front sit those who are lost. Lost either by directions or by heart. They are looking for an answer. Waiting to see if the conductor answers their lingering questions.

But in the middle of them all sits a couple. A couple of young lovers. People look at them as if they were mere kids, not knowing what they were doing. But at heart they already had a future planned. They ignored the envious stares, their laughs overpowering the whispers.

They make me think. Think that we could have been that couple that people envied. That our love was big enough to protect us from the dangers of the world. But I have accepted the past and there are no what if's anymore.

The door opening signals that we have arrived to our destination.

Standing on a meadow I gazed at the sky. The sun was departing. The skies were darkening. Just as the last rays of sun shined the wind blew by my face. The sillage I missed awakening my senses. The wind caressed my face with it's soft hands. Then it whispered in my ear. Almost inaudible.

"Ti ameró per sempre."

I will love you forever...

That sweet voice belonged to my love.

Now the Moon made a grand entrance. Joining in the stars danced.

You must be wondering why I am here. Well now to tell you a story.

Every month I take the west train to the meadow and hour earlier before the sun sets. Just to hear the voice all over again. To see the moon shine brighter each time. Just to hear one last time that our love is forever.

Since I can no longer see her physically I know that every time I go there we meet again.

Just to say I love you all over again.

Calypso, Ti ameró per sempre.
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A/N
So hope you enjoyed. This is the end of this book. I hope you all enjoyed this awesome journey. The story by itself is over but that doesn't mean that I might not post some poems. Also if you guys want you could send me your poems and maybe I'll post them if it's fine by you. Anyways THANK YOU ALL today we reached 6k. You should go check out my other works or share this book.

IM REALLY THANKFUL TO ALL OF MY READERS WITHOUT YOU NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE BEEN POSSIBLE.

LOVE YOU ALL, STAY BEAUTIFUL!
~Truffs