I woke up with a headache. Damn. I only took 3 jello shots, and I still got a hang over. I remember everything that happened last night.
I really want me and Jc to last way longer than 5 months. I don't want us to be over yet. I don't wanna feel lost, unwanted and hurt, all over again. I just wanna be with him. I wanna keep fighting for our love.
But how can I, when the image of him and Lia kissing, is replaying in my head. How can I, when there's a voice in my head, telling me not to give him another chance. How can I when every time there is a girl around him, I will think Jc is cheating on me.
I do forgive him, because I know that everyone makes mistakes but, I could never forget what happened last night.
I think I made up my mind. I know what to do.
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After getting out of bed taking a few Advils, and a shower, I go downstairs around lunch. Everyone is already down there. I say good morning to everyone and walk over to Jc, who was drinking orange juice and had bags under his eyes.
"Jc. Can we talk?" I asked. He placed his OJ on the counter and nodded. I lead him to the living room where no one was.
"Listen Jill. I'm so sorry and-" he started but I cut him off.
"Jc. I know you are. And I completely forgive you. Everyone makes mistakes." I started and Jc smiled. And it dropped when I continued. "But I can't trust you again, right away. What you did is still replaying through my brain like a fucking Vine."
"What are you trying to say Jill?" Jc asked.
"Jc. I love you. And I will fight for us. But right now, I have to fight for myself. I have to give myself some time, and I have to be ready to trust you again, before fighting for us. Because if I don't, I might lose the fight for us. And that's the last thing I want." My voice cracked. "I hope you take this chance and fight for yourself a little too."
"Jill. Please. I don't want to go a day without you." Jc begged. I cupped his cheeks with my hand and wiped a tear.
"Its okay Jc. You don't have to. I'll be here. I always will be here." I nodded. "Trust me. We need this. You go and fight for yourself. I'll fight for myself. And when we're ready, we will fight for us again. This is what's best for us. And in the end, we'll come back stronger then ever. I promise. I love you Jc but I need to pause it for now. Because we're gonna ruin each other, if we don't take time for ourselves"
"I love you Jill." He announced.
"I know" I whispered. I wiped another one of his tears before heading back to everyone else.
"Hey Jill. You okay?" Sam asked.
"Yea" I nodded, being strong. My tears stopped, and we all just started being us.
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Fanfic"I've given people second chance before, and nothing good can come from it" Jillian Lawley, is a teenager, trying to find out where she is going in life. Could her and her twin, Kian Lawley, becoming youtube stars, make a wrong turn, for better or w...
