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Chapter Fifteen: Another Day

Chapter Fifteen:

You're such a disappointment to this family. Why would you lie about such a thing.
I hate you...You disappointment
Disappointment....

I woke up aghast from my dream. This dream is reaccuring. I just want to be in Matt's arms. He promissed to come see me for his birthday. I hope he keeps his promise.

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We are out and about and I choose to forget about the dream like I always do. I drown myself in my music.

Welcome to the end of eras
Ice is melting back to life
Done my time and served my sentence
Dress me up and watch me die
If it feels good, taste good, must be mine
Dynesty, decapitated, You might just seat with us tonight

I'm taking back the crown
All dressed up and naked
I see what's mine and take it
Oh oh Yeah
The crown
So close I can taste it
See what mine and take it
Oh oh yeah!

I stood over the edge of railing and thought about jumping off. I continued down the stairs to the end where the beach was. I hate the beach...

I went to buy and Oreo icecream which I love. Icecream is one of the things keeping me sane. 5 more days. I just want England.

I messaged friend Exebia and the cousin thing because I trust her about his. Thinking about it makes me cry. Seeing my cousin makes me cry because he denied everything. Tomorrow is just a day were I can try again. My past I learn from it. Never delete evidence.

My mum, sister and I sit on a beach and think if what to do. Whether we stay in "Town" and eat or get a taxi back to our room. I don't care what we do as long as I'm sitting down. I really am unfit.

I read through mine and Matt's short conversation from earlier.

Matt: -Peeks out of your suitcase- Are we there yet!?

Me: Hehe. Yes we are

Matt: Yay! Hi hi

Me: I've missed you. I'm looking for something to get you.

I actually was! That's when I lost wifi. I never have it for long. Sometimes I wonder about Matt.

Like is he who he says he is. I've never heard his voice. We've never talked on the phone but i've seen pictures.

I see a couple walk past me. Playing around. The boy is hugging the girl from behind. It makes me wish I had that. I continue looking at them through my sunglasses. They look so happy.... It makes me sad.

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I lay in my hotel room and read through this wattpad story i've been obssessed with lately. It's called "Kissing is the easy part". It's so addictive. You just want to know what happens next. I'm on chapter 42 at the moment but have been interrupted in my reading by my mum.

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It's kinda strange
I think about you but I can't complain
Cause I really wanna love you
Same my name but be careful not to break my heart
Call me crazy
But I believe that it would be amazing
To dream about the way that we would gaze at the stars that made us fall in love.....

I closed my eyes and eveloped myself in this song. It takes over me like I've beem hypnotised.

I looked outside and stared at the darkening sky. It comforted me. I've always liked the night. I miss everyone. I had alot planned this halfterm which I don't normally.

I did this for most of the night till I felt tired. Tomorrow is a new day. A day for me to try again.