Online Relationship

Chapter Twenty: The End of All Things

There's a ghost in my bedroom that haunts me at night
I've told him to leave but he keeps stopping by
Just when I think that I'm alone
He shows up again with a friend this time
And now this is getting old
Don't know what to do
Metephorically this ghost is you

I lay on my bed, headphones on full blast. It's been a week since Matt hasn't called or texted in any way and I'm really scared. I said I wanted to end it but now I just want to know he is okay.

I haven't updated anyone about what has happened between us. For the past week whenever anyone says ,"How's Matt?" My reply is always the same.

"He's fine." I'd say. Everytime I spoke about him I would smile but now I can't even say his name. You know the saying 'If you love someone, let them go' I can't just let go. When people leave a mark it my life, it stays forever.

I can't even finish the chorus of Miss Mysterious by Set it off without crying. My "Sad songs :c" playlist continued to play. Miss mysterious came on after 2 other songs.

Miss Mysterious
Who are you?
Who's the girl behind those eyes?
Just a stranger in disguise
Miss Mysterious
Who could you be?
Where's the ghost of what we had?
That you erase it from you past...

He comes the chorus. I sing softely along with Cody's voice.

I said go
Run for your life
And tell me alright
Let me know when your heart went numb
I said go
Run for your life
And tell me alright

Here it comes...

If you love someone let the-

I couldn't finish it. That song will always be unfinished. Just like Rob Thomas Hold on forever.

I check my phone nearly every 5 minutes to see if he has replied to any of my messages. Still nothing... But I do have a message but from a number I don't know.

Unknown number: I blame you for this... I hope you burn in hell!

This has made me feel worse than I already do. I lay on my bed drowning in my own tears. It's a good thing I'm in the house alone. Therapy came on and the tears kept rolling down my face as I sang along to the song with Alex Gaskarth.

My ship went down in a sea of sound
When I woke up alone I had everything
A handful of moments I wish I could change
And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade
In a city of fools I was careful amd cool
But they tore me apart like a hurricane
A handful of momentd I wish I could change but I was carried away

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But i'm smiling at everything
Therapy
You were never a friend to me
You can keep all you misery

My lungs gave out
As I faced the crowd
I think that keeping this up coud be dangerous
I'm flesh and bone
I'm a rolling stone
But the experts say I'm delerious

Give me therapy
I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy
You were never a friend to me
You can keep all you misery

When I sing this song, especially the second verse, I imagine myself in a school corridor and just a swarm of people scurrying around infront of me. I try and speak but my voice can't be heard.

Or I'm in a classroom and everyone is making noise. I keep saying 'Shh' But noone will listen. I don't actually know what to do with myself.... I have no boyfriend at the moment, annonymous people are messaging me... I feel like this is the end of all things.

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My mum finally came back from work and stayed in her room as per normal. My little sister stayed downstairs with her face glued to the tv. She literaly can't live without it. Like me and my music.

I continue to do my Graphics homework before I go to bed and I continue to be spammed with messages from this Unknown number.

Unknown number: Answer me bitch.

Unknown number: Don't you realise what you have done??

Unknown number: God will make sure you go to hell.

I was actually in a good mood til I had those messages flood through. I told noone though. I just let the messages come through one by one by one.

My music played in the background.

Shouting for the stars
Desperatly reaching for something in the dark
Pictures of memories
Buried in my heart
Lie awake and dream of the endless possblities
Catch my breathe and go for it
Take apart everything that's holding me down
Make a point to make a new direction
To make a new connection

Is this what it feels like
Finding out that i've got the guts to say anything

I started to sing along until I got a notification that I had a text message. I swear if it's from that number...

It's Matt's mum. I've alwats had her number but never had to use it. I wonder what she wants.

The text message read:

Matt's Mum: Hi Bailey. I hope you are doing well because what I'm about to tell you might come as a bit of a shock. As you know Matt was meant to come and see you last saturday which he didn't. This is because Matt was in a serious car accident on his way to see you. The doctors did all the could to help but unfortunetly he died sunday night in hospital fighting for his last breath.... I am sorry.

The thing is I am sorry for her. She had just lost her son and she is consulting me. To be fair their relationship wasn't so good. I sat their re-reading the message again and again and again and it still didn't make sense....

I blame myself for this... A single tear rolled down my face. This really is the end of all things.

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A/N: I hope you guys liked the book because this was the last chapter. I am proud of this book because it is the only one that I have written, published and actually finished on wattpad.

Recommend this to your friends. I really hope you liked it. But a mystery still lingers in the air...

Who was the unknown number!?