Online Relationship

Chapter Seventeen: Alone

I lay on my bed listen to my music. I started school monday and it wasn't that bad. Tomorrow is week two of school and I'm dreading it.

I'm having second thoughts about Lacey. She is meant to be my bestfriend but acts like she wants to be my worst enemy. She and I planned to go see Panic! At the disco together since we share the love of Brendon... However, She buys the tickets without me.

I think I give up with her. Everyone loves her but the way she means to me is different to everyone else. She is meant to be my bestfriend. A single tear rolled down my face. I just feel like i'm still on my own.

I needed to rant to someone but Tasha and Shauna are at the BBC Radio 1 Teen awards. With Lacey. When I found out they were going with her it really upset me. I think everyone likes making plans without me. I don't mind them going.... It's the fact Lacey went but said she was babysitting that day and couldn't hang out with me.

I make a twitter status

My bestfriend is dead to me >.<

More tears flowed from my eyes. People fail to put me in their position and see how I feel.

If I got locked away
And we lost it all today
Tell me honestly
Would you still love me the same
If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn't be strong
Tell me honestly
Would you still love me the same

I love this song. It reminds me of the one person that actually brings me happiness at the moment. Matt.

I message Matt.

Me: I'm Upset....

Matt: What's the matter babygirl!? I hate it when you're upset.

Me: I just feel really betrayed. I'm never included in anything with my so called bestfriends....

Matt: Trust me baby. I know how you feel. -Opens arms-

Me: -Cuddles-

That simple conversation made me feel so much better. It wasn't much but that's how much Matt means to me. Just talking to him puts a smile on my face and makes me forget everything. I just want this day to end....

I love Shauna. And Tasha for that matter. But I know if our friendship is like this they will at some point become irrelevant in my life. I love them to much to let that happen.

I don't know where you're going
But you got room for one more troubled soul
I don't know where i'm going
But I don't i'm coming home
And I said
I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead
This is the road to ruin and we're starting at the end
Say Yeah
Let's be alone together
We can stay young forever

People fail to take my emotions into consideration. I fail at being a good friend....Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow is a chance to try again. Tomorrow....

Tomorrow....

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A/N: Hay! Sowwie it's not much of an update. Been so busy. I've been in hospital all weekend. Was discharged today. I'll update again tomorrow hopefully!

Also I'd love it if you checked out my new stories: I trust you and Baby Michelle.

I need covers for both stories. Anyone willing to make one for me..... Pweeeese!?