Inside Myself

Ghosts Inside Me

I was trembled and can't sleep. I was worried and I feel horrid about myself. Things seem running through my head like they will outburst anytime. They teased me, they let me impasse on my cocoon. I was outcast. I was ostracize. I started to feel ashamed of what others think about me thus, hatred and envy grow in my heart. I'm like a little plant in a desert surrounded by weeds and cactus, begging to be shed, waiting to be drenched even a little amount of water. The body of me has lost its soul, the ghosts inside me has owned me. My nightmare in every sleep, the sand inside my eyes. A mere light that keeps me sane, how I wish they were tons. But something made me wide awake. It just then that I realized, that my foolish heart and mindless brain are to be blamed. I started to never believe in myself when others left me outcast. I let others see the wrongs in me. I've forgot to say, 'Hey, look back, I'm not someone to be messed with'. I envied them. I wanted to change myself. I woke up in my darkest nightmare. I see myself through a looking glass, jealous and not content. I never helped myself. I realized that the ghosts inside me has been luring me for a long time and has tormented my life. But as times go by, as the sun rises and as the sun sets, I see myself as a little plant that grows in a desert surrounded by weeds and cacti striving and trying hard to survive and live in spite of the obstacles around her. I started to believe in myself, that I can outstand others in my own and unique way. I prayed to Him to help me and He did. I have loved the weeds and cacti of my heart. I have loved myself even more. And in those ways, I have defeated the ghosts inside me.

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