Flames of Courage Stand alone book

CH 9 Fighting Feelings

Blake's POV-

I can't believe I just let him leave. What was I thinking? God dammit I wasn't I was stunned into silence. I honestly thought Masen would be overjoyed that I finally could admit I shared his feelings. But no he freaked the fuck out, if anyone should be freaking out its me.

I pace the living room for thirty minutes before I decide to chase him down. I grab my sneakers and keys and lockup the apartment. I stand at the elevator anxiously waiting for the stupid thing. I turn to take the stairs just as the elevator opens and Masen gets out looking at me cautiously.

I grab him right there in the hallway and kiss him. I feel his lips go taught before relaxing and then he starts kissing me back softly. But I can't be soft I turn the kiss aggressive and thrust my tongue inside his mouth.

Masen returns the kiss with fever, sucking my tongue and running his hands up and down my sides. For a second I forgot we were in the hallway not our apartment until I hear throat being cleared and to my mortification its Jenny who sneers at us. "God you could at least do that disgusting shit in your apartment that's not even ten feet away."

I growl at her but Masen pulls me to our door looking sheepish before he opens it pushing me inside befor I can say anything back to the nasty cunt. Masen smiles at me dreamily which makes me smile wide like a goofball making my anger disappear. "Wow that was an amazing first kiss." I say while pulling Masen back into my arms.

He looks up at me bitting his lip but nodding. "I think we should kiss aga." Before again even gets out of my mouth Masen is on me kissing me fiercely. I return the kiss running my hands up the back of his shirt caressing his skin and causing goosebumps in my wake.

Masen pulls back breathless and I love how instantly disheveled he looks. "Ok maybe we should talk Blake, I didn't even know you liked guys?"

I shake my head. "I don't like guys but I love you Masen and I want to be with you in the worst way possible." Masen shakes his head. "You can't be gay for me Blake that's not a thing."

I scoff. "And what degree do you have in sexuality that you can make claims like that? Huh I looked it up it happens all the time to guys like me."

Masen pulls back. "What do you mean guys like you Blake? Straight." I nod. "Yes in the sense of the word I'm straight but not when it comes to you. With you I want to kiss you and touch you and be with you more than just as my best friend."

Masen sits on the couch with his head in his hands. "But what if we get together Blake and something happens? I don't think I could stand to loose you. Your my best friend too, I'm sorry but I can't chance it."

I get angry. "Then what the fuck is the point of you having feelings for me for the last decade if when I return them you run away like a pussy?"

Masen stands up and stalks toward me Angry himself now. "Fuck you Blake O'Neil I may have loved since we were sixteen but I will lay you out if you call me a pussy again."

I huff out a puff of air right in his face. "You are a fucking pussy Masen your scared of us but you don't have to be." I almost whisper to Masen and he goes buserk. "No I'm not Blake I'm just thinking with my head about our future and what if things go wrong."

I shrug my shoulders. "I never thought you would give up on something out of fear Masen."  Masen deflates. " I'm sorry Blake but I just don't know what to do."

I grab his hand and lead him to the bedroom. "Come on let's just go to bed for tonight I'm tired and this has been a stressful as hell day we can figure shit out tomorrow." Masen nods striping down and crawling into bed. I follow suite and lay down before pulling Masen into my side where he snuggles into my warmth.