Flames of Courage Stand alone book

CH 14 The past is the past

Masen's POV

Holding Blake's hand while he drives the hour and half to the town of Kells only makes mine sweat more. I feel my nerves go up a notch when I see the the town sign but Blake squeezes my clammy hand reassuringly. I try to take deep calming breaths but it doesn't help my anxiety one bit.

"I think we should just go home B. We shouldn't have left Teddie alone this long she is still getting use to us and our routine."

Blake sighs. "Masen it's been a month she will be fine by herself and she is in the laundry room there isn't much she can fuck up in there love."

I drop his hand and cross my arms over my chest. I know I'm sulking like a teenager but I can't find it in me to care at the moment. Blake pulls the car over and I take my first deep satisfying breath of air since we got in the car over an hour ago.

Blake looks at me. "Babe we are only five minutes away, if you really want to go home I will turn around now. But if there is any part of you that still wants to meet this woman you have to. You can't live not knowing it has been eating you alive these last two months. Just go and get your answers and remember you don't owe her a thing. You can be the one to set the tone of this whole thing babe just let me know what you want to do?"

I sag back into my chair. "I don't know? I wanted to meet her and see her up until we got here. Now.. Now I'm not so sure. I can't take this back once I open this door I can't close it again like nothing happened." I say feeling slightly defeated at my own weakness.

Blake grabs my hand again. "That's just not true babe. You can go in there and see her and if you don't like what she has to say you never ever have to see or hear from her again. This is on your terms not hers just remember that and do what ever makes you the most comfortable."

I feel like Blake is broken record he just keeps repeating the same thing to me over and over again. But maybe that's what I need to hear because I nod and steel my self. "Go ahead I'm ready now, take me to her."

Blake starts the car up and it feels like we teleport to apartment complex that's how quick we are parking in front of it. I can see apartment 113 and it honestly is terrifying knowing that the women who gave birth to me is behind that door only feet away.

It takes all the courage I have to walk up and knock on the door. I hold my breath as we stand there waiting. I look at Blake but then I hear the door open and look into blue eyes that match mine and I takes my breath away. She looks like me, we have similar builds and features I can tell this woman is my mother.

I watch as those eyes widen and start to tear up. Blake saves us both. "May we come in Elise?" Elise only nods ushering us to sit on the couch while she sits in a recliner facing us. She smiles through her tears. "Hi I'm Elise Bennett and you must be my son."

I bristle at the moniker. "Hi I'm Masen and you meet my boyfriend Blake here before." I point Blake out and she nods. "Yes I have been so worried about you since he came to visit me, please tell me you are no longer in danger."

I nod. "Yeah they found me and caught the bad guy he turned out to be a friend." I say sadly thinking of Will. He is still in jail he had a hearing last week and they denied him bail so he has to stay in jail until the trail.

Elise looks shocked for a second before composing herself. "Found you? Where you gone?"

I freeze up and Blake takes over for me. "Yes he was briefly kidnapped but his parents and gramps helped me find and rescue him. But that isn't what we came here to discuss."