Monster » (Stiles Stilinski)[Book 3]

Severed Ties

As if finding out Ms.Blake is my mom, Derek sleeping with my mom, her taking Stiles dad wasn't bad enough, now there's a bad storm hitting Beacon Hills. After Stiles dad was taken, we made our way towards Derek's loft in an attempt to beat her there but not before stopping at Deaton's for something that can be used against her. Stiles had texted Derek we were on our way and needed to tell him something, Derek was confused as hell but we were already on our way. There was no stopping us now and even though I was in my own pain, I felt sorry for Derek... another one of his girlfriends turned out to be a psycotic bitch, sorry mom. 

The whole entire ride to Derek's, I tried focusing on anything else but it was no use. Scott was driving Stiles jeep, and Stiles was holding my hand. Even though he couldn't take away my pain, it was like he was doing it just by being here and holding my hand. He was taking away my pain a lot more than Scott could or anyone else for that matter. He just soothed my hand, not bombarding me with questions, he was giving me my space that I needed.

Stiles is the best; the absolute best..

just thinking about what might have happened between us, it eats away at me. I'm whatever with Isaac, but no matter how many times I've tried to convince myself that us being apart is for the better...no matter how many times I've tried to convince myself I've moved on, I'm better off... the sad truth is, there is no moving on. I love him, I still love him, I'll always love him.

But everything's different now. 

Stiles opened up a part of my soul that I didn't think I even had anymore. The part of the soul that loves, hopes, and carries light. I will always have love for Stiles, nothing can ever change that and there is no moving on from him. But he's opened me up to new possibilities, and that includes soul searching and falling for someone..for Isaac. No matter what I feel for Isaac or anyone else; I will always love him. Stiles; he's the love of my life. I doubt I'll ever love another man the way I've loved him but two loves are never the same, never. But I will not have to claw my way back from watching another person I've cared about, love, die in my arms..I cannot handle the thought of Stiles dying because of me, if being with him keeps him safe...what's a small price to ensure his safety and that he lives a long and happy life..even if it's not with me. 

I got so lost in my thoughts of Stiles, that for a split second, I almost forgot about the real world shit that was happening right now. A million thoughts about my mom were running through my mind right now as we drove to Derek's loft. Some of them being, 'How long has she been alive?' 'Did she know I was alive all along?' 'What happened the night that they were killed?' 'WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?'

I was getting a headache just thinking about it. I never in a million years would have thought when I first started my whole little vengeance thing for my parents that my mom would be alive, and this whole entire time. What happened to her after that night? Did she know I was alive, did she try and find me? I don't think I can even think about the answers without breaking a little inside..

We pulled up to Derek's loft, Stiles helping me as we went up to Derek's. When Scott opened the door, Derek looked shocked to see me as he ran over to me, taking me from Stiles arms before resting me on the couch. He kept asking me what happened as I shook my head, tears still filling my eyes. Derek held my hand, taking away some of my pain so I could heal from my wounds and the wolfsbane faster, before asking us again what happened.