Monster » (Stiles Stilinski)[Book 3]

Dark Hallow

Right now, we were standing in the room. Stiles, Scott, and Allison were getting ready to go into the ice baths and we were going to kill them. I was still wary of this idea, mostly because I don't know if I have it in me. If I have to be the one to kill him, I don't think I'd be able to come back from it, I don't think I'd be able to bring him back. My worst fear is killing Stiles, him dying, and I don't know if I can do it.. I don't think I have it in me. 

I took a deep breath, taking a look at Stiles and trying to find some sort of sign that would show me that he knew this was a bad idea too, but I couldn't find one. Stiles wanted to do this, and I was going to respect his wishes...as much as I hated it..I let out one last breath before helping him into the iced bath. Stiles jumped once his toe touched the ice water and I slowly helped him in. Allison, Stiles, and Scott were already breathing heavy while Deaton, Lydia, and I positioned ourselves behind their tubs. 

"Be careful you guys.." I warned them, putting my hands on Stiles shoulders and giving them a squeeze. I was completely freaking out right now and I didn't know which was worse; the possibly loosing Stiles and me being the one to kill him or having him come back to me but his heart be clouded with darkness. 

"By the way, uh..if I don't make it back and you do, you should probably know something. Your dad's in town." Stiles looked over at Scott and Scott instantly had this saddened look on his face. Deaton looked to me and Lydia, telling them if they were ready. I looked over at Isaac's expression, I couldn't make it out and then looked down at Stiles. He looked up at me and forced a half smile on his face. He was holding his dad's badge in one hand and then gripped my hand with the other, as he held onto my necklace. "Bring me back.." 

I bit my bottom lip, feeling myself ready to start crying but I held it in. Now was not the time or place. "I promise.." I said while getting one good last look at him before Deaton, Lydia, and I started pushing everyone under the water.

An instant weight went around my heart and my chest felt like it was going to cave in as I pushed down on Stiles shoulders. I felt him struggle a bit as he gripped onto my hand even tighter, trying to fight a little. The feeling of him fighting against my strong grip, it was something out of my worst nightmares. I let tears fall from my eyes and down my cheeks like razor blades as I put a little bit more pressure on him until I suddenly felt him stop moving. 

I let go of his shoulders, gasping out loud. My hand instantly went to my mouth as I tried calming myself down; I can't believe i just did that. I can't believe I just killed Stiles.. I never wanted to hurt him and now i've killed him. 

"It's going to be okay, they will only be dead for a few seconds, minutes at most." Deaton reminded me while I just nodded my head. he was right, everything was going to be fine.. 

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