Monster » (Stiles Stilinski)[Book 3]

Don't Deserve You

"I don't deserve your love but you give it to me anyway.."

You know it's never easy being a teenager.

Let alone a teen wolf. (haha see what I did there)

There comes times where you realize that there's no difference between;

a life that you want and a life you can't have.

for everyone, there's things we dream about achieving, things we dream we can have in a future we believe we can have. But what if we don't believe we have a future? Then what? Do we just wait around and see what other horrible thing god throws at us? You know they say if you're going through hell keep going, well who's to say when enough is enough? When is the right time to say you're tired of going through hell? What if the reason you're going through hell is because that's all you have?

sometimes I think it would be easier if I just stopped trying. Like if I just packed up one day and left to go live in Siberia or somewhere no one would ever be able to find me. Then maybe I would stop hurting those around me..

I sat there on a boulder, overlooking the whole entire city of Beacon Hills.

It seemed almost peaceful, like you almost wouldn't guess that a whole entire pack of killer, fairytale creatures, Alpha's were trying to kill everyone. They had already taken out one member of our pack and I could feel them closing in. It was only a matter of time before someone else got hurt, someone we cared about.

I rubbed my shoulder, still feeling a little bit tingly. Ever since the incident at the Glen Capri, it was like something changed. I couldn't explain it but there was just something inside of me that changed. It was like.. a light had opened up inside of me. Maybe it was the words that Stiles told me on that roof to try and break through to me, maybe it was something inside of me. I think that-that after everything was said and done on that roof...

I think the past is finally that, in the past.

Maybe that was it.
I think it was this light feeling I had. All the guilt, shame, and torture I had been carrying around with me was finally gone. Now there was only one thing left to do...

"Hey..." I heard the familiar voice behind me say as I turned around to see Stiles standing there, hands in his jacket pockets. "You called...it sounded important.."

"It was..I mean it is." I stuttered. Okay this was not going off to a great start. I sighed before standing up straight, looking over at him. He was still the same beautiful soul that I've always seen him as. Despite all the hate, lies, betrayals, heart breaking moments... no matter how hard I tried to hate him for what he's done, there was no denying that I still felt the same way about his as I've always felt.